Saturday, November 27, 2010


I'm really bad at keeping up with this.  This year for some reason is especially hard. 

I usually get really depressed around Christams, but the holiday blues have descended early this time.  We were supposed to go to my Mom's orignally for Thanksgiving, that didn't work out, then we were going to Miranda's, needless to say with the weather forcast the way it was, we didn't make it there either.

I had picked up a turkey just so that when we got home we could cook it up and have leftovers, well we had the leftovers, and they were just as good as I had anticipated.  So much for that holiday.

I have also been feeling very disconnected from my family lately.  I realized that everyone is very busy and the phone works in both directions.  It seems like every time I call either one of the kids they are busy doing things with their in-laws or their other parent.  It probably doesn't help that we haven't had Lily for 2 months, but I do understand.  Miranda is pregnant and due at any time, I don't want her out on the roads.  I can't remember the last time we saw Brandon, but I believe it was right around 2 months ago.  I miss the little stinkers.  We don't get out and about very much because of Arlens health.

After his bout with blood clots in his legs, he has gone more and more down hill.  He now uses a walker or wheel chair to get around.  Makes it very hard to go any place.  We don't dare get caught out on the roads.  We do have road side assistance, but who knows how long that would take to reach us.

I love the job that I am doing now, however, the pay is kinda sucky and I just can't afford to spend what I would like on Christmas.  One of my greatest pleasures this time of year is getting things for everyone.  Yet this time I am unable to do so.  Debating whether to even put up any decorations as I know that no one will be here to see them, and I just don't feel like dealing with the cats getting into them.  That, and I know that I would have to do them all without any help.  Normally wouldn't bother me, this year it does.

I have also been fight a good case of pnuemonia again.  Last month it was bronchitis.  I know that the smoking doesn't help (yes, I quit for awhile and fell back wards) but I know plenty of people who smoke and don't have this many problems.  My doctor never seems to give me enough anti-biotics.  Only 7 days worth.  So I called up to have her re-prescribe them.  Hopefully another full week will be enough to knock it out once and for all.  I really am looking forward to feeling better.

I would like to get a jump on the Christmas baking, just can't decide what to make.  Rosettes for sure.  A lot of those will be going to work for the customers.  For without them I would not have a job!

Waiting anxiously for the arrival of little Claire, we all need some special magic this time of year and what is more magical than holding a new baby?

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Catching up

Have you ever had the feeling that no matter how fast you go, you will never be able to catch up?  Doesn't matter if it is with cleaning, shopping, getting in touch with family and friends, it just never happens.

There are times that I feel close, and then my time line turns a corner and loses me again.  So I go around the block looking for it, it must have ducked down an alley and jumped into a dumpster.  You think that maybe it is trying to avoid me being able to get caught up?  Can a time frame be that smart, or am I just so far behind that I can't see it?

For some odd reason I always get caught up at work, and usually have extra time for other things.  Once I get home, pfft, right down the block once again.  My mind is willing, my body not so much.  Couldn't be old age could it?

I know they (whoever they are) are always saying that you are only as old as you feel.  Is that body wise or brain wise?  Body wise I feel about 90, brain wise I don't feel much over 17.  You know young and stupid and not smart enough to know that at some time I won't be able to catch a break or catch up with anything.

Right now my only goal in life is to sleep for 8 hours straight (without having to go to the bathroom), have a clean house, a husband who actually helps out around the house, and be achy and pain free.  I don't think it is that much to ask.  Really very simple when you think about it. 

Simple doesn't seem to be a part of my life right now.  Someday it will be again.  Maybe when I get senile and can't remember that I never did get caught up.  Just think of the possible outcome,  not remembering that you have things to do, actually thinking that you have everything done and then having had time to do some more, and really, who is going to tell you different?  You won't remember it anyway!

So until that time comes (maybe it will catch up with me) I will just sit back, wave goodbye, and tell the time to kiss my ass.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Time flies!

Wow, I can't believe how fast the time has been going lately.  Seems like just a few days ago it was the start of summer, now here we are into November all ready.  I find myself thinking a lot about the holidays.

I would like to go up to my mom's for Thanksgiving, but it all depends on the weather (stupid Minnesota).  More than likely we will end up staying home.  Miranda has invited us up to their place for the holiday, again all depends on the weather.  I guess I will just pick up a small turkey just in case.

Christmas is going to be difficult this year.  Every other year I have received a weekly pay check, this year I get one every two weeks.  Which is fine, except all the bills are pretty much due at the same time, good bye money.

I can't figure out what to do for the kids, or if I can afford to do anything.  The grand kids, now that is another story.  There is no way that I will not buy them stuff.  I will go hungry first before not buying them presents.  I have a good idea of what to get the Lily and the Brandon, but the Claire, maybe diapers or formula.  I know that they can use it.  Miranda has all of Lily's stuff, so not so much with the clothes.  Maybe  couple of warm sleepers.

I guess that in December, Arlen's sister Jan is planning on doing Christmas on the Penske side sometime around Doris' birthday.  There again it depends on the weather, as they live down in the Marshall, Redwood Falls area.  I really don't want' to get stuck there.  Still have a few problems with Arlen's younger brother.

As you can see, I still don't have much to say, no opinions on anything, no major problems (other than my spelling today), no difficult decisions to be made.  Very boring actually.

We do have to have the shingles replaced on our roof.  The wind storm last month caused most of them to end up on the ground.  Just waiting to find out what the final total of the claim will be and then can contact someone, hopefully before the snow starts flying.

Would be nice if Collin and Adam were able to do it.  Just the cost of the shingles then and a little bit for them for their time.  Oh well, that's why we have insurance.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Proven nothing

So in the last month I have proven that I am incapable of keeping up with this.  By the time I get home from work, I'm too pooped to do anything. Then the weekend comes along and I have to work even harder at home to get everything done.  I am WAAAAAY to old for this nonsense!

Had a Dr. app't yesterday. Went really well, I may be able to discontinue taking the medicine for the diabetes!  Will know in about 6 months or so, unless my blood sugar continues to stay low, then it will be sooner.  Since I don't want to put the weight back on that I have lost, I will continue to eat the way I have been, boring though it may be, it is better for me in the long run.

I worked on Labor Day, was expecting to get holiday pay in my check, nope.  Wouldn't mind so much but  I worked the shift by myself, and I was extremely busy.  That will teach me to work holidays from now on!

Went garage saleing in Lester Prairie last weekend with Miranda and Lily.  Didn't find very much, but then I don't have a need for much of anything these days.  Next year's round of sales will be here sooner that you think.  The ECFE sale is on October 2nd at the new high school by Howard Lake.  Runs from 9 am until noon.  May go and check that out.  Maybe can find some neat things for Miss Lily an Little Claire.

October 10th everybody is coming here for Collin's birthday.  Still don't know what he wants to have for his meal or if he wants a cake or cream puffs with pudding filling. He's supposed to let me know, but the little bugger is in Chicago this weekend.  Hope they have a good time.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Not Dead Yet

Well, here I am again.  After I don't know how long a break.  Many things were happening all at once and I just couldn't get my mind wrapped around any of them.

Started out with the weekend we had Lily.  Great weekend by the way.  Arlen ended up in the hospital with a blood clot in his leg.  He was there the whole weekend.  My car decided to play the game of "Am I going to start or not?"  My Internet connection had to be fixed.  I still was going to the laundromat to do clothes.
All in all not a very good month.  Thank goodness that is over.

My Internet is back working, I have a different washer and dryer, Arlen still has the blood clot, my car for the most part is working pretty decent.

I have a couple of guns that I am going to sell to get some money to purchase a different vehicle.  I also plan on selling my Jeep so that I can get something fairly decent, if not decent, at least reliable.  There is a guy in Dassell that buys old cars and stuff.  Since mine still runs and everything except the cruise and the one back window work including the 4 wheel drive, I figure I should get a pretty decent price for it.

Wouldn't even be considering it, but the parts are getting harder to find and when I do find them, they are getting to be so expensive.  There are some pretty nice sounding vehicles out there.  Be nice of I could have the money by Thursday.  There is a foreclosure, police seizure and confiscation Auction that night.  Lots of cars, SUV's, vans, etc.  Probably won't though, oh well, so goes life.

This coming Wednesday my sister-in-law and I are going to the Apple Orchard for lunch.  We've never done anything like that before, so it should be interesting.  I also have never eaten out there.  I have heard that the food is pretty good.  Of course, now I have to watch what and how much I eat.    I can do it though.  That is my new mantra.  Just like the little engine that could.

I went through my closet and dresser and got rid of all the clothes that no longer fit.  2 30 gallon trash bags, 2 13 gallon bags and a few things in the regular garbage.  I usually do that twice a year to start with, but this time it wasn't just to get rid of things that I no longer wear or just didn't like anymore.  Why keep clothes that are 5 sizes to big around?  They were just taking up room.  Thank goodness that the Lester Prairie garage sale days are next weekend.  Time to replenish!

Enjoy the cooler weather!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Second Best?

The other night while I lay in bed, trying to sleep, I had so many thoughts going around and around.  One of the things that kept popping up in there was the fact that my whole life I have always felt second best.

Second best to my brother, second best to my 1st husband, sometimes 2nd best to my children.  I don't know if this is a rational feeling or not,  but it is mine.  It is very hard to change your mind set was something takes hold.

I realize that I can't change anything anymore, but when you grow up hearing "why can't you be more like your brother, cousin or whoever", it sinks in and stays there.  You just know that no matter what you do or what you accomplish, it is never going to be quite good enough.

I hope that as my children were growing up that I never made them feel this way.  I tried to be encouraging in any endeavor that they wanted to try.  If for some reason I failed in doing so, that again is my sub-conscience going, "not quite good enough".

I know deep down that I am the only one who can change this attitude, but what happens if I do manage to change my outlook and still nothing happens?  Does that mean that I was again failed, or didn't try hard enough, or just didn't know in which direction to go?

I'm tired of having to work, tired of trying every day, tired of not having any kind of social life, no close friends, no family life.  I do understand that both kids are busy with their own families, but once in a while it would be nice to feel as if I was put first before their other parents, family members, etc.    I know, it now sounds as if I am feeling sorry for myself, but as they say, "if I don't, who will".

Basically, I am just really tired of being tired of everything.  Will have to find some way to work that out and get on with life, before it gets on without me.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Trying hard

I am trying very hard to think of something positive to write about.  So far no luck, but I'm sure that if I sit here long enough and ramble on, something, anything will come to me.

I am positive about one thing.  Most men who never had to do anything in the house while growing up, turn out to be giant slobs when they get married.  They figure there will always be someone there to pick up after them, wash their clothes, make their food, take out the garbage, shoot that even includes taking dirty dishes to the sink.

I have stopped picking up after my husband.  The only thing I do do is take the dishes into the kitchen when it is time to wash them.  He knows how to wash and dry clothes, so if he wants to go around wearing filthy things, let him.

I am also positive that we have no active social life.  We don't ever go any place, see any one, or do anything.  Makes it very hard to have things to talk about.

I am also positive that there is something wrong with my car.  It will crank over for a long time before it finally catches and starts.  To me it sounds like the fuel pump or fuel filter needs to be replaced.  We have replaced the rotor, the coil, the starter, the alternator and the ignition.  The only things left are the modulator and the distributor.  I still think it is something to do with the fuel system.  It almost acts like it is flooding all the time, but with no fuel there.  Crazy huh?  I will have to have the mechanic look at that possibility.  Right now I can't afford to even think about getting a different vehicle.  Such is my life.

I have to get the new plates on my car today.  Have had them for 2 weeks waiting for Arlen to put them on, but I guess I will attempt it, otherwise no driving anywhere.  Well, that is when my car starts.  Such a vicious circle.  There is an auction coming up in Sept. that has police seized vehicles.  One of them is a Red Jeep Grand Cherokee.  I would love to have the money to get it.  Saw the pictures, looks nice.  Who knows, maybe a wind fall will come my way before then and I can go and get it.  There isn't much on that auction, so maybe there won't be that many bidders there.

Alright, I have been mostly negative positive instead of positive positive, so it must be time to go.  Talk to you all later.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Oh My!

Well, here we are again, it's Saturday.  So far I've been up to the laundromat and got the clothes done.  Trying to decide what to do next.

I have been sitting here trying to think of something, witty, wise, important and all that other good stuff.  Can't come up with a thing.  I don't know where the people who do this everyday get their inspiration, but in a way I am jealous of it.

I do have a little piece of advice.  It concerns grandchildren and grandparents.  As grandparents we are probably overlooked more often as "oh they will always be there".  We won't.  By the time you parents decide that maybe, just maybe, it is time to visit so we can see the grandkids, we will either be dead, comatose, or have moved and no one noticed.

I know that the phone lines work both ways, but unless it is something really important, I tend to stay away from the phone.  I just don't enjoy talking on it.  No matter how you feel towards your own parents, it you have young children, don't make them wonder what happened that they don't get to see a certain set of grandparents.  If you have a problem with something we are doing, or not doing, be a grown up and bring it up to us personally.

Grandparents and grandchildren have a special, wonderful, one of a kind bond that no parent will ever truly understand.  We are always there for them, we never judge them, we always have time to listen.  We very rarely ever take sides, we will however give advise and support when it is needed.  Other than that, the grandchildren will always know how much we care, love and miss them.

Sometimes it is easier to express that love and caring to grandchildren than it was to your own children.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Babies babies, babies

Lily is going to have a little sister, Miss Claire.  She will be born before Christmas and will be a very welcome addition to our family.

Today is our 28th Anniversary and here I sit on the computer and Arlen is sleeping on the couch.  Already today I have gotten laundry done (had to go to the laundromat), got grocery shopping done and groceries put away, am planning on taking out garbage and re-arranging the living room.  Going to make a ham and potato meal for supper.  YUMMY!

When I was at the grocery store (reading labels) I found a couple of Quaker Oat granola bars that I can eat, if my blood sugar is down low enough.  If I keep moving and getting in some mild exercise, it goes down far enough that I need to eat.  How great is that?!  Of course, it now takes me twice as long at the grocery store.  Have to read all the labels for Total Carbs, Total Sugars, Cholesterol, Dietary Fiber and all that good stuff.  I am hoping that eventually I will know what I can and can't have.

My Dr. app't on Thursday went really well.  If I can get my blood sugars in a stable range, by September I may not have to take the medication for it at all.  Will control it with diet and exercise.  She still wants me to love at least another 30 pounds.  Not sure where exactly it is supposed to come from, but should be fun to go shopping for clothes.  I already fit into a 13/14 pant, haven't been able to do that for at least 20+ years.  I'm not spending much on pants and what nots.  There is a thrift shop here in town that I can get jeans for $1 a piece.  So until my weight levels off, that is where I will be shopping.  Not sure what size top to get, all the ones that I have are way to big.  The funny thing with tops is, no matter what size you think you are, when you go to try them on, there will always be some place on your body where they don't fit like you hope they will.  Men don't know how lucky they are.  As long as their shirts close over their bellies, they're good.  Women on the other hand have to not only think about the belly, but the boobs and shoulders, not to mention the length.

I just found out that a friend of mine lost her mother recently.I know that the last time I talked to Barb, she said that her mom wasn't doing so great.  Whether you expect it or it comes as a complete surprise, you are never quite as ready as you think you are.  All we can do is be there when some one needs us, either to sob or to vent.  Either way you need to listen and not give any advise or be saying things like "I know exactly how you feel".  We don't know how that person is feeling, everyone experiences lost and grief differently,  so just be a friendly ear to listen and a large shoulder to cry on.  It is all that is expected of you.  Please don't do the one thing that irritates me the most, do not offer to do anything, unless you really mean it and are willing to do anything they ask of you.

Happy weekend!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

My day off

Well, this day is starting out to be really sucky.  A day off and here I sit at 4:30 in the morning, unable to sleep.  Of course if it would cool off outside it would help a lot.

I keep seeing people driving by, and I wonder what they were doing, where they are going and why they are doing it on a Sunday morning.

I have all these free downloads from the MN Lottery.  Went to their site, but didn't see any of the music that I enjoy.  Will have to get the Christmas stuff, and then try to figure out how to get it on my ipod from my computer.  Yes I am very computer stupid when it comes to things like that.  Maybe it is just because I don't like to think any more than necessary.

All of the storms missed us last night.  Maybe there is some truth to the whole Indian Blessing for this town.  Seems like whenever severe weather happens, you can watch it split and go north and south of us, but never straight at us.  Weird.  Not that I am complaining, I would rather it be that way then the other.  I am not a big fan of bad weather.  I know that a lot of people enjoy the storms, but not me.  Give me good weather any day of the week or year for that matter.

I really have nothing important or pertinent to say at this time, so will let you go.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Been a long time

I realize that I need to be more diligent about this blog.  The only problem is this, by the time I get home from work and watch a little TV, get a little bit of stuff done around here, it is time to go to bed.  Bedtime for me is usually around 7 PM.  I get up at 3 AM, so you see how this could affect my time spent on the computer.

The only thing that I do on this darn machine anymore is pay bills.

We found out yesterday that Adam & Miranda are having another girl.  How exciting!  She will be born the beginning of December, should be lots of fun at Christmas.  i already asked Miranda if she wanted to have Christmas at their place this year.  I figured that with a new born and a 2 year old, it would make more sense for the rest of us to travel then for them.

Work is going good so far.  I get tired very easily, but that could be due to age.  It isn't a lot of fun trying to find time to take my blood glucose, but it has to be done.  That as well is going good.  Don't have very many days when it is over 105, I love it when it gets down to 80 or 90, that means that I can cheat a little bit.  Been eating so much fruit lately that I feel like a salad!

We have to get the new tabs for both of our vehicles.  What a pain in the you know what.  Why can't they do it like they do for driver's license's?  Wouldn't that make more sense?  Renew your license and your tabs at the same time and place!

We had Lily last weekend, that explains why nothing got posted here.  It is always so much fun to have her here.  We went shopping, and cleaned and played alot.  Found out that one of her favorite commercials is the one for Red Robin,  Yum.  She was playing hide and seek with Grandpa.  He was feeling really good this weekend and got to enjoy some time with her.  So far she still prefers Grandma over Grandpa.  Have to see what I can do to keep that going.

This weather is so miserable.  I hate sitting still and still sweating.  Minnesota, whatcha gonna do?

Saturday, July 3, 2010


I'm sitting here trying to think of something witty and wise to write about.  Nothing.  My life has settled into a very dull routine.  Get up, go to work, come home, work some more, go to bed, repeat.

I think I have a pretty good handle on this whole diabetes thing.  My blood glucose has been staying down where it is considered normal, even after eating a meal.  I still have an appointment with the nutrionist, but I guess that is a good thing.  Except for the whole "you really need to watch what you eat and exercise more".
Why is it that most of the time these people who are the so called experts, have never experienced any thing more than a hang nail?

Well, it's the 4th of July weekend and we have no plans what-so-ever.  Nothing wrong with that, but everybody expects you to be doing something.  I am, I'm relaxing at home.  If you don't like that answer, tough, it's the only one I have.

Gotta go.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Stuff happens

Yep the title for this one pretty much says it all.  This has been one of the worst weeks of my life so far.

I believe that I told you that I was diagnosed with diabetes.  That is going well so far, my blood sugar has come down and is pretty much staying where it is supposed to be or at least within acceptable areas.  I have an appointment with a nutritionist on the 13th, then I will finally find out what I can and can't eat, how much and how often.  I can't imagine what my blood sugar was before I lost the amount of weight that I have lost.

Wednesday I went to the Dr. thinking I had a really bad cold and it turned out to be pneumonia.  Made it really miserable at work, but thank goodness I work with a great lady and she picked up the slack for me.  I am feeling better, still get a little winded if I do too much, but I can handle that.

Work is going good.  At first it was so slow that the time just dragged.  Each day it has steadily gotten a little bit busier.  Friday was a very steady day as far as customers go.  The time went by so much faster.  We have started a Taco Tuesday and Fajita Friday.  To get it out that we have these items, we put a fajita up in the warmer, it barely left my hand and it was gone.  We ended up putting 4 more in.  If that is what it takes to sell the darn things, then so be it.

The people that I work for are great.  They are actively involved in the running of the store and are easy to talk to and ask questions of.  Lately they seem to have more questions for me than I do for them.  That's okay,  as long as I can answer the question, I'm doing good.

I think that is all to get you caught up, have a great week.  Talk to you on Saturday.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Laundry day, maybe

Sitting here trying to decide if I want to do laundry.  Not much of it, 1 load of clothes and 1 load of bedding.  I will have to get it done as I need my shirt for work.

I have already had breakfast (5:30 AM) and taken my pills, so I am doing good that way.  Breakfast is a hard meal for me as I don't really enjoy eating in the morning.  But I was told that I need to, so I will.

Yesterday I received 2 phone calls from the store.  The first one was about an invoice and check and the second was about some syrup for the icee machine.  At least I could answer both questions.  Kind of looking forward to going to work in the morning, and kind of not.  Never did like Mondays, even when I wasn't working.  People can be so crabby on Monday morning.  Don't take it out on me, I am already at work!

I don't know how I did this 5 days a week before.  I am having a hard time trying to come up with something the second day.  This is going to be a short one.

Have a great week!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

How life changes

I will now be doing this on the weekends instead of during the week.  It is just to crazy to try and keep up with everything on a daily basis.

It's been a crazy two weeks.  Started working again.  That's great.  Hard to get used to being on my feet for that long, makes my back ache like the dickens.  Makes me feel good that I am no longer unemployed.  Last Saturday we went to Farmington for Brandon's birthday.  Had good food, good talk, good time.

Thursday I had to go in for an ultrasound on my abdomen.  Nothing wrong there.  The radiologist didn't find anything that wasn't supposed to be there.  So, that was good news.  After my initial blood work a week ago, I have been diagnosed with diabetes.  No big surprise there, it ran on both sides of my family.  Now I just have to get used to taking a pill (yep, 1 pill per day) and doing the testing.  Shouldn't be too terribly difficult to get used to.  The hardest part is going to be eating breakfast to take the pill with.  I am also suppose to have classes with a nutritionist in order to find out how often and what to eat and how much.  Does this sound like a diet?  I don't eat a lot of junk to begin with so shouldn't be very hard.  I did eat some toast this morning, and have already done my first testing.  Darn finger pricks any way.  I do have the meter that I can test on my arm or different areas of my hand.  Now just have to get in the habit of doing so.

We had some interesting weather Thursday evening.  Watch a funnel cloud out our bedroom window.  Watched it come down, watched it go back up, watched it go to the north towards Howard Lake.  I normally get really nervous about this kind of stuff, but I was so tired that day I just didn't care if it hit the house or not, as long as I got to go to sleep.  Brandon was worried about us though.  Nice to know that he cares that much.  Called to let him know that we were both ok.

I am so glad that Winstock is over and done with for another year.  Just kind of sat here and giggled about it, what with all the rain and everything.  I think I posted that in an earlier post.

Other than all that, nothing much going on.  Oh yeah, before I forget, Wednesday when I got home from work, Arlen had done the dishes and cleaned the kitchen, then he went out and mowed.  Was such a nice surprise.  Hope it keeps up.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Here I am

I know that this past week I have kind of been slacking off.  Been very busy.  Funeral last week, work this week, exhausted all the time.  Sometimes just the thought of writing anything makes my head hurt before I even begin.

Tonight is another sleepless night.  Woke up around 1 AM and can't seem to get back to sleep.  I think it is because of all the things that I know I have to get done tomorrow.  I am so far behind in cleaning and laundry that I can't see the end of it.  I will get it done, I just have to keep telling myself, I can do it, I can do it, maybe I can get someone else to do it.

Winstock was this weekend.  What a miserable time that was.  Thursday night we had 5" of rain and it hasn't really stopped yet.   Going to be a giant mess out there.  I don't know how those people are going to get out without getting stuck.  Their problem.  I can't wait until they are all gone.  Can't go south on the main highway unless you want to sit and wait for idiots.

The store opened on Thursday.  Thursday was very boring, Friday was a little bit better, I don't know how Saturday was, never went past there.  I'm hoping they were busy.  I think that once it hits the newspaper that it is once again open it will help bring in business.  Right now we are pretty much just going on word of mouth.

Went to Farmington yesterday for Brandon's birthday.  Long drive, good food, good time, not as long of drive home.  We decided to be adventurous and try a different way home.  We cut out going through a couple towns, missed a couple of detours and ended up right where we needed to be.  Now if we could just remember the roads we were on.  Have to get a detailed map and write it down.  Got home and ended up on the heating pad for a while, then took a nap, which could explain not being able to sleep right now.  Going to try the heating pad again.

Went to the Dr. on Friday.  I have to go and have an ultrasound on my gall bladder, a bone density test and lucky me, a colonoscopy!  First I have to call the insurance company to see if they cover these things.  I am not paying for it out of pocket.  Also found out that I am at the end stage of a case of shingles.  Miserable was I, itching, sensitive skin and just plain hurting.  I also got a tetanus/whooping cough shot and had blood drawn.  Getting old sucks.

Guess that will do it for now.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

almost ready

The store is almost ready to open.  What little things are left can be finished after the doors open tomorrow.
My feet, legs and back are taking the brunt of it right now, so not used to being in an upright position for that long anymore.  Hopefully it gets better, if not, hopefully will get good drugs to help.  Will have to hide them from Arlen.

I am writing in a really weird format today.  Brain can't seem to get into gear and stay there, slips right back into neutral.

Had all kinds of people stopping in today.  All the vehicles outside, everyone thought the store was open.  That should be a good sign for tomorrow.  Thought at first that the credit card machines weren't going to work, they finally started, yay!  That's all we need, nobody writes checks or carries cash anymore.

Will let you know how it goes when I get home tomorrow.  Have a great evening.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Darling Daughter

To my Darling Daughter,

I realize that you are going through some difficult times lately.  You are feeling alone and misunderstood.  You prefer not to express any thoughts or emotions about your situation.  You are not alone, and you are not the only person to feel this way.

Many of us have felt the same.  It may not seem like it, but we do understand and empathize with you.  There is nothing more difficult than to want to feel good and take care of your present family and your future family members.

When you are feeling like crying, watch your daughter and laugh.  When you feel like staying in bed all day and avoiding those who love you, get up, hug your husband and daughter, heck even the dog, he loves you too.  When you feel like you just can't hold it in any longer, scream, yell, cry, hit something.

If you get to the point where you think that nothing will ever be the same again, remember, it won't and there isn't anything you can do to change it.  Even with the morning sickness count your blessings.  You are a wonderful daughter, wife, mother and mother to be.  You are one of the strongest young women that I know and I will never be able to express how loved and proud we are of you. 

You are patient when patience is called for, strict when you see your child doing wrong, tolerant of all the new things she is learning,  Your daughter will be the bright spot in your life when the new baby comes along.  She will smile and giggle at all the funny noises and expressions the baby will make, she will love you unconditionally and she will be your biggest helper when you need it.

Anytime you feel like you need a hug or a pat on the shoulder or to just be told that you are doing a good job, look to your heart and you will find all of these waiting for you to pluck them out and use them.  They will be given freely from your father, mother, husband, daughter, brother, sister-in-law and all of the wonderful supportive friends that you have.  Never doubt this for a minute.  When you need someone to talk to, vent at, or complain about any and everything, call us, we will never let you down.

Love, Mom

Sorry for the delay

I first want to apologize for taking so long to get back to this.  We have had a very hectic 2 weeks.

The first week Arlen was going through withdrawal from his pain patches.  Not fun.  Absolutely no fun to be around him and watch what he was going through.  Why do people choose to do drugs?  If they only knew what they would have to go through in order to kick the habit, maybe they would think twice.  But we made it and he is doing 100% better.

Last week Tuesday, Arlen's dad passed away out in Sioux Falls.  Wasn't totally unexpected, but still hard to deal with.  He went to the hospital with pnuemonia and just never fully recovered.  We went down for the viewing on Thursday night with the funeral on Friday morning.  Brought the little miss back with us and went to a graduation on Sat.  I am so glad that the weekend is over.

The worst part of the whole passing and funeral is the following.  Arlen's younger brother, Daune, decided Thursday that he wasn't feeling well enough to attend the viewing.  Friday morning at 4:30 his mother had to call the ambulance to come and get him.  Evidently he was throwing up blood, he is still in the hospital.  He is supposed to have a bleeding ulcee, an infection in his stomach and colon.  Needless to say he missed his own father's funeral.  He will never be able to get that back.  During the funeral and after, his mom was so worried about him,  I told her that she first needed to take care of herself or she wouldn't be any good to anyone.  After the funeral we went out to the farm.  We thought she was going to go to the hospital to see him, but surprise, she didn't.  Good for her.  She seems to be adjusting very well to the whole situation.  There is a lot more involved but it just ticks me off to no end every time I think about him.

I went in for my first day of work this morning.  Was suppose to have register training on the new registers.  Nothing got started really until after lunch.  Isn't that the way it usually goes?  Got home around 4:15.  Tomorrow I go back for more training and to help get all of the stuff on the shelves opened up and ready for the first day to be open, which should be Thursday.

I can't wait to get used to being on my feet again.  My legs were so sore when I got home, I honestly thought about chopping them off.  The good thing (I Think) I guess I will be manager out there.  So on top of getting paid, Cindy asked if it would be ok with me if they gave me cash bonuses every so often.  What do you say to that?  No I don't want no stinking cash bonus, get real.  I will take case any day of the week, and I do mean any day of the week!  At least the owners are going to be working a lot of the hours themselves, so they will be able to answer most questions any one should have.

They did a really nice job when they remodeled the store.  Looks so much nicer than before.

Will keep you informed as to how it is going.  Have a great day!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

The party's over

The long weekend is over, for most of you who had plans, that is also over.  All in all it was a fairly decent enough weekend.

Arlen's dad isn't doing so great.  Looks like he won't be coming home at all.  He could have been home for over a week if Duane would have gotten his lazy ass in gear.  Nothing can be done about it now.  They have taken Allen off of everything except the pain meds.  Trying to keep him as comfortable as possible.  I just hope that Jan, Gary, Arlen and especially Duane realize how lucky they have been.  They have had extra time to talk and be with their father.  Not everyone is that fortunate.  Some of us find out with a phone call that everything is already over.  Not chance to talk anymore, not a chance to say goodbye and no chance of making an effort to heal certain parts of the relationship.  I wish I could have been given those chances.

I am very disappointed in Arlen's mom.  They rushed out there yesterday and instead of staying she decided that she had better go home with Duane to make sure that he was all right.  WHAT!  If it were you, would you not have stayed.  Cripes they've been married for 61 years.  It's not like they are within driving distance.  Sioux Falls is over 2 hours aways from where they live.  If Duane is that fragile (?) maybe he should be committed somewhere and get the help he needs.  He evidently is not getting it at home.

On a happier note.  Saturday I was up at Miranda's for Lily's birthday party.  That girl is quite a character.    Really had no idea that everyone was there for her, but was so excited to know that it was her party and her birthday cake, Elmo of course.  When I got ready to leave she decided that she would bring her beach ball and go with.  I think she thought I was just going outside and she wanted to go out and play, but hey, I'll take it anytime I can.

Brandon's birthday is coming up on the 14th.  His party is the 12th.  When I asked him what he wanted he told me "Prince of Persia" stuff.  Guess what, I have no idea what he'll be getting.  He's going to be 9, so he is at that age, too old for some toys, too young for others.  What is a grandma to do?  I'll get it figured out, eventually.  After all, I have 2 weeks.

Since I finally got this done, I can now concentrate on other things.  I have a pork roast going real slow.  Don't know if I want roast, potatoes and gravy or pulled bbq pork for sandwiches with fried potatoes and beans.  Both sound good.  Wish me luck with the choice.

Friday, May 28, 2010

Here we go

Don't know for sure where we're going, but we're going to get there.  Friday morning, last day of the work week, weekend here soon,  what are your plans?  Going to the lake?  Going to be outside doing lawn work?
Going visiting someone?  Doesn't really matter as long as you are going.

In a much better place mentally this morning.  Got some sleep, not continuous, but I think enough.  Sleep is such a wonderful thing that so many of us take for granted.  We go to bed at night because we are tired, either mentally or physically.  We lay down, get comfortable and wham, nothing.  Either our minds won't shut down or our body won't cooperate.  Bummer.  So we do the best that we can.  With luck or with help eventaually the eyes close and we lose touch with the day to day activities that keep us going.  Hopefully it will be for 7 or 8 hours, but now always.  In my case I usually get 2-3 hours at a time and then awake for a while.  Which would explain the crankiness and being unmotivated to do anything.

My house is such a mess.  Nothing that a good hour or two wouldn't do.  I don't have any laundry to do, thank goodness, just dishes and general picking up.  Oh yeah, and the litter boxes, yuk.  Arlen has been absolutely no help at all.  Not sure why, but after 28 years I keep expecting him to start helping out around here.  Blasted mothers that do everything for their boys.  They really aren't thinking clearly about what the future wives have to say to all that.

I mean, seriously, when they reach the age where they are asking where their clean clothes are, show them how to use the washer and dryer.  When they are asking what there is to eat, show them the fridge and stove.  When they complain or even mention the state of the living room, show them the vacuum cleaner and dust rag.  Get them ready for life, unless you want them to remain little boys when they reach the age of 50 and you are still doing everything for them, hopefully you are still around to do it.

So many people are ill prepared to face life on their own or with their own family.  It also makes them think that everyone owes them something.  Got news for you.  I don't owe anybody anything.  I only owe myself to have the best that I can get, whether it is a clean house, clean car or a better job.  If someone thinks that is a selfish idea, too bad.  The one thing that I will give freely is the support and love that my family needs, whether they want it or not.  I can be stubborn, I can also be a pushover.  Sometimes it is just more fun to be a pushover, not neccasarily easier, just more fun.

I've had numerous people make comments on how they couldn't go through what I have in the last 7 years.  You don't know this until it all happens to you.  In the long run it more than likely won't and you should count you blessings every day that the day goes by without any major problems.  It is so easy to take it all for granted when everything is working the way it is supposed to and oh so easy to leave when things take a turn for the worse.  You find out a lot about your character when faced with difficult decisions and life choices.  After all, where exactly would I go?  I never once entertained a serious thought of leaving,  dreamt about a little vacation from it all once in a while.

I have also found out in the past 6-8 months that I am not looking forward to retirement.  This whole 24/7 thing is highly over rated.  There is only so much to talk about, to do or to go.  So I think that once I am back to work I will just plan on staying there and working until I drop dead there.  By then I should have lost the ability to hear complaints and the ability to hold my bladder, but who cares, when you get really old, people expect you to stink a little!

Have a great weekend, long one on top of that.  I will be talking to you again on Tuesday next week.

Thursday, May 27, 2010


I'm sitting here at 2 in the morning trying to figure out people and life.  So far the only conclusion I have come up with is that for the most part the people you love can be the most inconsiderate and selfish people in your life.

Sound bitter and resentful?  You bet!  I have gotten to the point where I don't dare go to sleep, I know that as soon as I do, Arlen is going to wake me up with some stupid question.  He doesn't seem to care if I get any sleep or rest, as long as he is comfortable.  I know that he is going through a bad time right now with his pain meds, but God, give me a break.  It doesn't just affect him.  I get stressed out and my back gets so stiff and sore that I can't hardly walk.  Can't lay down, have a hard time sitting on a chair.  Nothing I do will ease the hurt, and all I want to do is break down, throw a tantrum, throw anything, don't even care what it is.

If I could afford to, I would be out of here in a heart beat.  Not for good, just for a day or two of mental wellness.  I have even thought of getting in the car, going out to the public landing, and just laying back in the seat and trying to sleep.  At least no one around here would lthink to look for me there.

I don't ask a lot of other people, have always felt that I needed to handle this thing on my own.  As you can tell it isn't working.  We're supposed to go to St. Cloud for Lily's Birthday party on Saturday.  I am hoping that Arlen doesn't want to make the trip.  On the other hand, I can't trust him with the pills if I leave them behind.  He is one of those people that have a very addictive personality.  He can't take anything only when he absolutely needs it.  He thinks he needs it all the time.  I have talked to different Doctors about a pain management clinic, I never get a straight answer  Either way, I am going on Saturday.  To hell with what he wants.  maybe I'll get his sister to take him for the day, bad when you have to find a babysitter for a 52 year old man.

I think that later on I will go up to the clinic and see if I can get in to see Dr. Midwinter about my back.  I can't keep going like this.  Be a good one, I need pain pills and something to help me sleep.  You know how it goes, someone asks how's it going, and you automatically say, great, fine, couldn't be better.  You say these things because you know they really don't care, even if it is family.

Arlen's sister thinks that I am a strong person for putting up with all of this for the last 7 years.  I'm not strong, I just know that there is no one to help.  Oh they all offer, but when you need them, they are busy.  Make time god dammit.  I can't do this alone anymore.

On the flip side, the store is going to open before Winstock weekend.  I will be going in for training on the new register system on the 8th of June.  I can't wait.  I will actually be able to get away from the house!

I am going to go and play some games now, since I am wide awake, more than likely for the rest of the day.
Have a good day.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Forgetting dialog

I had every thing plotted out in my head last night of what to write about, twice!  Woke up this morning, poof, gone, right down to the last detail.  If you continually think about something before going to sleep, wouldn't you expect it to still be there when you open your eyes?  My mistake, now you will just have to suffer with all of my ramblings once again.

They got done digging in the yard yesterday.  They had to put in some kind of traps for the sewer system.  Stupid people keep flushing things down the toilet that should go in the garbage.  Now our yard looks like a mess and they are still going to be stupid.  I can fix the yard, but as Jeff Foxworthy says, "You can't fix Stupid!".

Not too bad temperature wise right now.  If it could stay this way all day it would be almost perfect.  The hot weather isn't so bad, it is the darn humidity that gets to a person.  My biggest pet peeve during the summer and winter is the people who go around saying how much they enjoy the heat/cold.  If they enjoy it so much why do they have AC in the summer?  I can understand the furnace in the winter, especially in Minnesota, but let's get real.  If you enjoy the hot days of summer so much, I dare you to get rid of every single AC unit you have, you know, house, car, cabin, tractors, etc.  You should be relishing in the hot, sticky, stinky humidity.  Be outside, do things that make you sweat even more.  No one will want to be around you, but hey, you're enjoying the heat.  That also means no bars or restaurants with AC.  I have had frost bite and heat stroke.  Believe me when I say that I no longer enjoy winter and summer.  Your whole body changes after that, your tolerance goes down and nothing is fun or pleasant anymore. 

As a kid we neither remember or complain about the outside temps.  Mainly because we had no choice in the matter.  We were not allowed to sit around inside and do nothing.  If you were inside you had inside chores to do, if you were outside, you had outside chores to do. Didn't hurt us any.  The only game systems we had were called board games.  No DVD's, no MP3, no iPod, barely any stereo, oh yeah if you were lucky to have one it only worked with LP's.  TV was a joke.  There were the following channels: 4,5,9,11,12 and don't forget the important one Channel 2 TPT.  We watched what our parents watched, not much choice, what with the one TV in the house.  Heaven forbid we had to get up and manually change the stations.  We were what our parents would have called their remote controls.

Wasn't all bad.  We spent an awful lot of time with friends doing nothing.  Going swimming in a lake that had pasture all around it (do you know what cows do in the water?), fishing, biking (pedal kind), playing tennis, hanging out at the pool hall (yep, she had AC, why do you think we hung out there?).  Child hood is a glorious time in our lives and if we are lucky enough to have lots of good memories we are truly blessed.

Have a great day!

Monday, May 24, 2010

Oh Monday, Monday

I keep thinking that I am hearing thunder.  May have to go check it out sometime.  Finally broke down and put the AC in the bedroom.  What a difference.  Felt so good to take a shower and not have wet hair all day.

Have any of you ever tuned in to KTLK 100.3 FM?  All talk radio.  Some of the topics are pretty interesting.  They really get going on Obama, that's always fun to listen to.  They have also lately been talking about Mexico and the illegal aliens.  Evidently it is ok for them to come here, but if you show up there illegally, you can be exported or imprisoned for up to 10 years.  Even to talk in favor of illegal aliens can get you jail time.  Do you really want to go to that country for anything?

It's too bad that the US doesn't have the same type of laws for dealing with our problem.  No, let's give them homes, jobs, couny assistance, worker's comp, unemployment, credit cards, free schooling, etc. etc.  I personally think that we should be taking care of our own before trying to take care of someone else's.  Just my opinion.

Okay enough of my high horse.  Yesterday I got so hungry for a fresh, homemade donut.  So I whipped up a batch and made donut balls.  Yep, exactly what I needed.  That and cold jell-o, made that too.  Both go really well with coffee.

We got a 18 cup perculator pot for the stove for $1 at a garage sale.  Nothin beats perked coffee.  The smell, the taste, the heat of it, just perfect. So now about every other day, I make a big pot and then put it in the air pot, stays hot for at least a day and a half.  Saves lots of coffee that way.  We don't throw out nearly as much as when we use the Bunn maker we have.  Coffee unless it is kept in an air tight container, becomes stale and oily.  Not an attactive site, plus it just doesn't get as hot, and let's face it, coffee is supposed to be burn your mouth hot.

I see that they are here to start digging in our yard.  Not sure what it is they are digging up, but the cable, gas, electric and phone people were here last week marking everything out.  I'm pretty sure that it has something to do with the sewer.  Hopefully, they respect the fact that where they are going to dig, is real close to where the strawberries and tomatoes are planted.  That is probably a false hope, but being the ever optimistic person I know I can be, I'm still hoping.  At least they are doing it while all the kids are in school.  I like kids, don't get me wrong, just not other people's.  Does that make any sense at all?

Just looked out the window, yep, they are idiots.  Only women should be able to dig up yards.  At least we appreciate the plantings.  Alright, I was wrong, they have missed the plants so far.  Would have been nice if we had been informed that they were going to do this and why. Not a word.  Love that communication!

Wow, I have just gone on and on.  Makes a difference when there is a couple of days in between.  My brain has a chance to come up with topics.  Have a great day!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Here we come, marchin' down the street....

Title has nothing to do with anything.  Watched the BIO channel last night, and they did a bio on Davy Jones and the Monkees.

Miranda got some great news yesterday.  The place where she used to work, called and wants her back on Monday.  WOOHOO!  I know she wasn't thrilled about where she is now, especially after they decided not to keep her on after the 90 days temp.  Worst part, they hired a replacement about a month before her 90 was up.  Bad business practices if you ask me.  She will be much happier and content back at the old place.

It is hard to believe that it is already Friday, where does the time go?  Yesterday I woke up with no ambition to accomplish anything.  However, I managed to get a pot roast in the slow cooker for supper, got 1 loaf of bread, a dozen buns and a dozen cinnamon rolls made, plus got all the garbage out, and the dishes done.  Really makes me wonder what I could do if I had some ambition.  So far today, zilch.

I know that it is either misting or drizzling out, I can hear it on the road when the cars go past.  It is so light that you can't see it.  I'm sure the strawberries and tomatoes are enjoying it.  Wish they were ready now.  Next week I am going to order a couple of blueberry plants.  Probably won't get any this year to eat, but I have a whole year to look forward to it.

Guess that will do it for now, have a great weekend!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

No energy or enthusiasm

I really don't feel like doing this today.  Not sure what I did yesterday, but my back is hurting again.  When that happens any energy I have is used up just trying to move around.

I know that I have to get the garbage out today.  It isn't stinky or anything, it's just time to do it.  Suppose to be Arlen's job, but I have found that if I want it done, I need to do it myself.  Makes me kind of worried about when I go back to work.  How much is he going to keep up with everything or am I going to have to do it when I get home every day. I actually know the answer to that one.  It will have to be done when I get home.

It is hard to believe that the little miss is going to be 2 in a week.  She has been growing up so fast and changing so much this last year.  Now it is just a matter of time to get her potty trained.  Always a relief to have that done, no more diapers!  Not that there is anything wrong with diapers, they do serve a definate purpose, but oh, to have them gone.

Arlen talked to his dad last night.  He figures that they will keep him in Souix Falls for at least another week.  Good.  Get his meds, sleeping and diabetes not to mention physical therepy under control.

I keep going over the same old things.  My mind is just in kind of a jumble lately.  That is what happens when you don't have any contact with people.  Nothingnew ever comes into your life.  I shouldn't say that I guess, especially since Miranda is pregnant with baby #2.  She is due around Dec. 7th.  I can't wait, of course that does mean more diapers!  I just wish that she were having an easier time of it.  This pregnancy isn't agreeing with her very well.  I know that she is already looking forward to having it over with.  Hopefully the next 6 months go fast and she starts to enjoy the experience.  If nothing else it will be something that she can hold over the child's head for the rest of his/her life.

I talked to my mom last night also, she doesn't have to have the injections in her eye anymore.  Whatever the drops were that they had her putting in, seem to have done the trick.  So yeah!  It was nice to get some good news for a change.

We have Jordans graduation coming up on the 5th of June.  Should be the last one until thegrandkids start graduating.  The following week we have Brandons birthday party, then Father's Day.  4 weekends in a row of things to do.  Been a long time since that has happened.

Alright, I'm going to stop the babbling and try to decide what to do first.  Maybe I will throw together some bread, rolls and buns.  Yummy!  Have a wonderful day, enjoy the weather.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Politics, Religion & Everything Else!

I know that a lot of people use their blogs for spouting off about politics and politicians, religion and whatever else they can think of.   I don't seem to have an opinion one way or another.  Politics is rather boring and religion, well, I think that is a very personal issue and however you want to believe is up to you.  It is not my place to force it on you, or yours to force it on me.

I get e-mails constantly from one person, sending different religion and faith messeges.  I end up just deleting them all.  My faith is mine, I know what I believe and I just don't think that I need to hear about theirs all the time.

Took a shower this morning and when I got dressed I actually put on a pair of jeans!  I haven't had jeans on in I don't know how long.  Since I have lost weight, they just fit funny and aren't comfortable.  But I thought, what the heck, I'd try it today.  As of right now they feel pretty good.

Not sure what the plan for today is other than paying a couple of bills.  I don't get it, I pay them and they just keep coming back!  Kinda like weeding in the garden or mowing the lawn, another one of those things that just never gets done all the way.  Oh to be rich and be able to pay them once a year!  Just think of all the extra money you would have the other 11 months.  SHOPPING!

Arlen's dad is doing really well.  They had him sitting up in a chair yesterday, and he figures he'll be able to go home in a couple of days.  Not.  They will hopefully keep him there to get his breathing, diabetes and sleep apnea under control.  Not to mention all his meds, and the correct way to take them.  I do know that they were going to have a Health Care Nurse coming out, hope they follow up with that.  That way there would be somebody to set up his meds and chart for him when to take them.  Right now Duane is doing that, but I think he is doing it all wrong.  If he wants to be in charge, then he really should go and take classes on how to do it, and follow them the right way.

Okay, now that I have had my couple of minutes to unload, I hope that your day goes as smooth as possible without any complications, worries or nonsense involved with life.  Have a great day.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Another sleepless night

I don't know why I am so blessed with the ability not to sleep, I will gladly pass it on to anybody who wants it.  Wouldn't be so bad except for the fact that during the day I am so tired I have to push myself to get anything done.

Got alot done yesterday.  Lawn mowed, garden area getting prepped to plant tomatoes and strawberries.  Dishes done, Laundry done/  Wish I had a clothes line so that I could hang out the laundry.  Nothing smells as good as sun and wind dried clothes and linens.  Maybe this week I'll figure out where to put a clothes line.

Arlen's dad is doing really well.  They took out the breathing tube yesterday.  He was very happy to have it out so that he could eat.  Eating is always a good sign of recovery.  Or so I've been told.  Jan, Glenn and Arlen's mom, Doris, are going out on Wednesday to see him.  Wish Arlen would go with, not sure how the trip would affect him.  We haven't been any place since he had the latest procedure done.  I could really use a day all to myself, selfish huh?

I can't believe that Lily is going to be turning 2 in a week or so, and that next month Brandon will be turning 9.  I think the time goes by even faster for grandkids than it did for our own.  Going to be a busy 3-4 weeks.  Lily's birthday, Jordan's graduation, Brandon's birthday and Father's Day.  Other than the graduation, everything else requires driving, which I don't mind, but once in a while it would be nice if Arlen would drive so that I could just sit back and relax.  I'm not the best passenger in the world, done the driving for too long, and I do like to be in control in the car, but that doesn't mean that I'm not willing to change.

I have found that when I do this early in the morning, I have a tendency to ramble on and on about absolutely nothing.  So, if this gets really boring for you to read, please feel free to exit out of it and read someone else's, it has to be more interesting that this nonsense.  I can't even think of anything witty or sarcastic to write.  Not being sarcastic is very strange as that is part of my humor.  Of course you have to know me well to know this. Both Collin and Miranda have inheirited this wonderful trait.  At least they both got something from me, not sure if that is a good thing to pass on or not.

I think that I will quit while I am ahead, or at least think I am ahead.  Hope you all have a great day and get a chance to enjoy the wonderful weather that we have been having.

Monday, May 17, 2010

No idea of what is going on

Well, today started out fairly decent.  Sun shining, light breeze what more could you ask for.

Arlen's dad is in the hospital in Souix Falls, and doing okay for now.  They transported him by helicopter from Marshall.  The biggest problem with all of this is Arlen's younger brother.  What an idiot.  Didn't let anyone know to begin with that Allen had been taken to the hospital, won't call anyone to keep them informed as to what is going on.  Jan (Arlen's sister) called out to Souix Falls to see how their dad was doing and the nurse informed her that while they were doing a procedure they almost lost him and didn't her brother call and let her know.  Jan went out there yesterday to see Allen and to find out what is actually going on.  They intubated Allen to help him breath and did a broncospopy to suction out all the phlegm and gunk from his one lung.  He was alert and in a good mood, couldn't talk of course because of the breahing tube.  They think they may be able to remove that today sometime.  Hopefully Jan got it set up for the hospital to notify her of things.

Not realy sure what Duane's motives are for keeping everyone in the dark about all of this, but no matter what they are, in my opinion they are totally selfish.  This way he can come off the big shot and go around saying that no one else cared enough to call or visit.  What a crock. The boy needs to get a life of his own and get it figured out that at the age of 47 maybe it is time to cut the umbilical cord.

Okay enough ranting and raving.

Got laundry started, not that I have a lot of it to do, but always nice to get it out of the way.  Still have to do dishes.  Why is it that those 2 household chores never seem to be completely finished?  You think you are all done doing laundry and then at the end of the day, BAM, there's more dirty clothes.  Dishes, after you get all done washing them, you look around, dirty glass or silverware that you missed.  Just think if a person was rich enough you could throw away the clothes and dishes and just buy new every day.  Although if you were that rich you could afford a maid to do all of the menial chores.  Ah, if wishes were fishes and all that good stuff.

Went garage saleing over the weekend.  Got some good stuff.  A kitchen sink with faucets- free, a car seat for the little miss, a spring horse - $1.00, a potty chair - $1.00, a new bed - $25.00, a large roaster - $2.00, a picture for the living room - $1.00, a whole bunch of tupperware - $2.00, a shredder/slicer attachment for our mixer - $3.00, a mini ice cream maker - $2.00, I think that is pretty much it.  Didn't really need the bed, but the wood one we have is in need of a re-finish and some light fixes.  The kitchen sink is a hair bigger than the one we now have, but the faucets aren't made from plastic like the one that is now in the kitchen. 
The spring horse we got just to have it here for the little miss.  Hope she likes it and isn't too afraid to sit on it and bounce.

Well, that's the long and short of what has been going on here since the last time I sat down and wrote anything.  Have a great day!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Nothing new

I am going to try and stay positive for as long as possible today.  The weather just isn't helping any.  So much rain and grey skies.  What is going to happen this summer when we really need it?  Will it come or stay away?

I don't have a lot to do today, just a few piddly dishes, but I do need to get them done.  Arlen's dad was taken back to the hospital last night.  He has some kind of infection in his lungs.  He was in there Tuesday and they let him go home Wednesday before all of the test results were back.  I was very surprised at that.  Normally they don't let you go until they have found out what the problem is.  Hopefully this time they will keep him long enough to get it taken care of.  He is not a young man anymore.  He is in his middle to late 80's, so they really do need to get the infection gone.

One of the worst things they do down there at home is this,  when the weather is nice, they never open any windows to let the fresh clean air in.  It is kept wrapped up tighter than a Chirstmas present that you forgot about.  During the winter they re-circulate the air, during the summer they re-circulate the air, but never do they just breathe in fresh air, especialy after a nice cleansing rain.  I don't know if it makes a difference or not, I only know that I feel better after having windows open.

After our meal on Mother's Day, Lily received an ice cream cone for eating so well.  She is always a good eater, it's just an excuse to give her ice cream.  She really enjoyed it, but wasn't too sure what to do about the cone itself!  Thank goodness for bibs.  Now if they could just make a self cleaning ice cream, what a perfect world it would be.  It is so hard to believe that she is going to be 2 in a week or so.  Boy does that time go fast, even more so when you don't see them 24/7.

I hope that everyone takes time to enjoy ice cream today!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

What a dreary day

Another one!  How many more of these days will it take before we all go bonkers!?

Went uptown to get jell-o, stopped in at the pharmacy to pick up part of a prescription that is "owed" to Arlen.  Guess what, they didn't have it, they had a partial part again.  No more, either give us the whole thing or let us know you don't have it so we can go somewhere else.  1 prescription and yet I'm supposed to make 3 trips to get it, I don't think so.

I finally got around to making a Dr. app't to have the mole on my back removed.  Thing has been there for about 25 years, never changed color or shape, never got bigger.  I'm just tired of being self-conscience about it.  I also need to talk to her about a couple of other things, which I'm sure will require more appointments. Thank goodness I finally got insurance.  Now I can not only see a MD but I can go get new glasses. 

The last glasses I got were from America's Best.  Never again will I go there.  I know that most people are very satisfied with them, mine keep falling apart.  Not enjoying them so much.  I do know that I will not have bi-focals put in the lenses.  I end up taking them off to do any reading or computer work anyway, so why bother.  I am excited about new ones though.  Can't wait to see what kind of frames they have.

So here is my philosophy for today.  If the weather is crappy and you don't have the energy to do anything, don't.  No one will judge you, no one will look down on you and no one will have the nerve to say anything to you about what you didn't do.  It is very hard to be motivated to be productive when the weather refuses to co-operate.  Besides that, it is the middle of the week.  You still have 2 days before the weekend, and if you haven't done anything the past 2 days, you probably don't have that much to do to start with.  I have a plaque that says, and I quote, "My house was clean last week, sorry you missed it".  I agree with my whole heart and soul.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Really crappy weather

Why does it seem that for every day of sunny days we get, we end up with twice as many cold, wet, cloudy, depressing ones?  I don't know if it is just me that feels this way or not.  Not that it makes any difference, I still haven't figured out how to control the weather. Is some of this the result of the volcano in Iceland or just Minnesota being Minnesota?  Who knows?

We are waiting for a phone call from Arlen's mom.  Yesterday they took his dad to the hospital and no one bothered to let us or Jan know.  Arlen had been trying to call all afternoon.  He finally got a hold of his brother Gary, who then told him about it.  Not sure what the reason was, from what he has been able to piece together, Allen had a bunch of fluid built up around his heart.  Don't know if that is why.  Arlen was understabably upset when his mom finally called around 8:30 pm,  wanted to know why no one bothered to let him know.  She didn't have an answer, and then when he asked why Duane couldn't have called, she didn't know what to say to that either.  Isn't this one of the main reasons that we carry cell phones?  I know it is for me.  So like I said we are waiting to hear more info, whether or not we need to go down there, or how long he will be in the hospital, or what they are doing for him.  I say, "Welcome to my world".

I have been semi-productive this morning.  Got my dishes done, the bed stripped and re-made and laundry going.  I think that is all that I am going to attempt to do today.  This weather is playing havoc with my back.  I need sunshine and warmth.  Then when I look out the window I can almost see the grass growing more and more each minute.  So as soon as it is dry enough, we mow and trim again!  Doesn't take long when we both go at it.

Well, I better go, have to wait for that call!

Monday, May 10, 2010

Weekend over, finally

Now that Mother's Day is over we have garage sale day, fishing opener and Father's Day coming up.  Why is it that once Spring hits, there is always so much to do.

Not only do we have everything above but we have Lily's birthday and Brandon's birthday during the next month.  Right now I have the time to enjoy it all, but certainly not the money.  I will make do, I always seem to.

Garage sale day in town here is this coming Saturday.  I am on the hunt for a car seat to have here and a new bed frame.  I like the bed that we have, but it is time for something different.  There are a couple listed so will go and check them out.  One is brass and the other I believe is iron..  No cats will be able to scratch on them.

We did have a good weekend.  Mom and Mike cam down on Saturday and spent the night.  Collin, Miranda and Lily came down for Sunday.  Grilled burger, brats and dogs.  Had every topping you could think of for each of them, plus fresh fruit salad, chips and dip and beans.  It looked like so much food once it was all laid out, but when you consider most of it was for the meat, it really wasn't that much.  Mom brought down the sweets like she always does, and my brother, Mike, drove so that Mom wouldn't have to.  It was nice to see and visit with him.  We seem to only get together every 5 years or so.

Lily enjoyed the chalkboard and pretty much stayed there.  She would scribble and then erase and then ask where it go?  Very fun to watch.  Didn't care too much about her other toys so the room stayed fairly clean.

Now all I have to do is recuperate and get back in the swing of things.  We did get the lawn moved and trimmed on Saturday before people showed up.  It looked so nice.  Now if we wouldn't need to mow again in a couple of days life would be almost perfect.

I have decided that I am getting tired of being asked if I have heard anything yet about when I go back to work.  As soon as I know, I will make sure to let everyone else know also.  I did check my unemployment account and have about 7 weeks left at the rate I am at now.  I will then be able to re-apply for another extension, but I'm pretty sure that I won't have to.

I think that will do it for now.  Have a wonderful day!

Friday, May 7, 2010

How did it get to be Friday?

I could have sworn 2 days ago that it was Friday.  Now that it is, I have so many things to do and I just don't want to do them.  It is always easier to work when it is sunny and warm.  But NOOOO, they are talking snow flurries this afternoon.  Where the hell is that coming from.  So glad that we haven't done any planting yet.

I got all my shopping done for Sunday.  Just have to get the kitchen and baths cleaned and then I am pretty much ready.  As much as I enjoy having company, I just as much enjoy not having it also.  I know that is a contridiction but that is just the way it is.

I was talking to my daughter yesterday, she said that they had given Lily a big box to play with and she was in 7th heaven.  What is it with kids and boxes?  They don't care what came in it, as long as they themselves fit in it.  Of course it is always good for the imagination.  They can have a house, a boat, a car, a hide out, whatever they fancy at the moment.  Why we ever buy anything except empty boxes is beyond me.

I got to thinking last night, I know!, we have a high chair that Miranda and I re-finished about 9 years ago.  This high chair converts into a chair with a tray that can be used for almost anything.  We actually painted the tray with chalkboard paint.  So today I am going out to storage to bring it back and then picking up chalk.  When Lily is here she will have a place to sit and draw or color or eat her snacks.

I finally got my insurance card, so now I can make a Dr. app't.  Was going to do that today, but I think I will wait until next week.  No particular reason, oh yeah, no money for the co-pay.  What's a couple of more days waiting when I haven't been able to go for the last 2 years or so?  Obama's health care plan is so full of holes, he just has no idea.  He wants every person to have health insurance.  What about the homeless, the unemployed and the ones who just can't afford it.  If he really wanted to do something with health care, he would get it set up like Canada and England.  There is you have a job, you are covered no matter what.  There are a lot of people out there that could be working and choose not to, them I don't feel for.

The other thing is Minnesota GAMC.  They are planning on cancelling it altogether.  Fine, cancel it on the parents that are capable of working, but keep it going for the kids and the people who really need it.  My theory is this, just because you decide that you want a whole bunch of kids in order to get more AFDC, doesn't mean that the state should have to pick up the tab for the whole shebang.  Hospitals and Dr. visits are not cheap.

The whole welfare system is totally screwed up as far as I am concerned.  Why anybody would choose to stay on it for years and years is way beyond my scope of understanding.  There is nothing more degrading than to know that you are capable of being a contributing member of society and yet choosing to do nothing.  I just don't get it.  And yes, I do have first hand experience.  We were on it for a short period of time out of necessity, but I couldn't wait to get off it.  It doesn't teach your children anything about responsibility or self worth.  It teaches them that if they play the system right, they will never have to work or take on anything that they may be a little bit uncomfortable with.  What a shame.

Have a great Mother's Day weekend!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Absolutely blank!

Guess there won't be anything written today.  My mind is a complete and total desert area.  Dry, windy, and lots of noisy sand blowing around.  Imagine sandpaper inside your head, that is what mine feels like today.

Talk with you tomorrow.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

I think I need a new picture!

Went to put a picture up on this blog, couldn't find one of myself!  Who knows, maybe I don't exist, and if I don't exist, who keeps writing this?  If you fnd out let me know by calling 1-800-She-Lives!  Of course I know you are not stupid and you realize that this number is bogus, right?

I don't know about you, but I hate having my picture taken.  I can never get my hair just right, I think that I always look heavier than I probably am, and no matter what...I just can't fake a smile.  I would much rather be the one taking the picture, just for those reasons.

I am sitting here debating whether or not I really want to take a shower.  Crazy ain't it?  If any of our numerous faucets were high enough, I would just wash my hair and be done with it, but alas, they aren't.  Not only are they not high enough, they are all made of plastic!  It just boggles my mind, you pay all this money for something only to realize later that you are paying high price or low end items.  Such is life.

They are talking about warmer weather today and then cooling off again for the rest of the week.  Sure do wish that it would even out, I have no idea how to dress for this.  The last couple of days I have had to pull some of the clothes that I put away for the season.  Just because it is Spring doesn't mean that I am going to go crazy about wearing shorts and tanks, I do like to stay warm.

I guess that now would be a good time to go all complemtative about life and my view points on certain subjects or go back and remember something from my past.  You know what I miss the most?   Of course you don't, you weren't there.  I miss laying on the fresh green grass, looking up at the sky and just watching the clouds.  Such a carefree time in life.  I also miss the one cat I had in high school.  During the winter I would get out the sled, grab the cat, and go sledding.  He actually liked it.  Can't remember the darn cats name, but do remember sledding with him.  I also miss taking out my rifle and going target shooting.  Used to be pretty good at that.  Riding bike into town, playing tennis, hanging out at Red's with friends after games and on Friday and Saturday nights.  Red's was the local pool hall/hang out spot.  The place where if you wanted to meet up with someone that is where you did it, the place that you could find out what was going on any place in the area, the place where you could be yourself without having to worry about what your parents would think.  They had either the restaurant or the bar to hang out in.

My life was pretty calm and easy, my parents lives were not, but they never let it affect us.  Lots different than now-a-days.  We try to let our kids know if things aren't going good or if they are.  If we don't have enough money to get them what they want or if somehow we can swing it.  How you have to pay bills and work in order to survive.  I am glad that I grew up as naive as I did.  In some ways it made it a lot easier and in others it was a sort of non-education as to what to expect when you got out on your own.  I'm not sure how fair I was to my own children while they were growing up.  For the most part they had to help out around the house, learn to cook, clean and do laundry.  I think looking back that I may have put too much on them and didn't let them just be the kids they should have been.  When they got old enough, they had to get jobs if they wanted to have the extra things that I couldn't give them.  This took away time from spending with their friends and just doing the nothing that kids are supposed to do.  Yes, they complained from time to time, but in the long run, they were pretty good sports about it all.

Have a great Tuesday!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Oh no, Monday already!

The weekend just kind of blew away.  What a wind we have had the last 2 days.  Hopefully, today will be a little calmer.  Even the squirrel in our one tree maaged to stay hidden and out of the wind.  Just proves that we don't have a flying squirrel!

We had the little Miss for the weekend.  Such memorable times when she is here.  She if growing up so fast, as they all do, and I am so happy that we get to watch as it happens.  She is now sleeping in the twin bed in the spare room, the crib is folded up and stored and waiting for the next one, it will be lonely for a while, but who knows? maybe one day.,

I can't wait until the first Monday that I wake up and have to groan about going to work.  I will relish it, enjoy it and embrace it, at least for a while.  I am sure that after a bit, I will feel the same way as everyone else does about Monday morning.  For now it is high on my expectation list.  It is also a good thing that the job I will be going to, I actually enjoy doing.  Although, no matter how much you enjoy something, there is always a part of it that is less than enjoyable.  It may a co-worker, your hours, your pay or in my case, one or a couple of the people that come in as customers. I am hoping that the regulars will be as happy to see me again as I will be seeing them.

Right now, my contact with the outside world is on a very limited scale.  The grocery store, the pharmacy, Casey's, you know the places that I have to go.  The ones that require food, health and gasoline.  I finally got health insurance so I will be able to add the clinic to my very short list.  But it is a different place, right now the only time I go there is to drop Arlen off and then try to find something else to do while waiting.  Good thing The Attic opened up and is not too far away from there.  That is what I am planning on doing this Wednesday.

Well, I think that I have depleted my resources for the day.  Enjoy your Monday, be it at work or if you are lucky enough to have it off, at home.

Friday, April 30, 2010

Oops, is it Friday?

Yesterday kind of got away from me.  I kept myself so busy that before I knew it, it was already 8 pm and I was exhausted.  Couldn't even find the time to sit down and do this.  Yeah for days with things to do!

I started out cleaning in the living room, moved the couch and rocker, got on my hands and knees and scrubbed along all of the edges ( for those of you who don't know, we don't have any carpeting in the house with the exception of our spare bedroom) from there moved on to the kitchen, scrubbed edges, walls and then mopped.  Took down the curtains in the kitchen, washed them.  Got out garbage and got the dishes done.  Straightened up the little bathroom and then decided to put down the new floor.  Yep, I did, me, no one else.  Before doing that I scrubbed the floor, once again on hands and knees then finished up the floors in the entry and living room.  Thank God for knee pads!  I don't think I have ever been so sore in my life.

Was hoping to get my strawberry bed prepared today for planting tomorrow, but that isn't going to happen.  Woke up to rain.  Grass still needs mowing, but boy, oh, boy, is it ever a pretty green color.

Arlen was going to put an outside plug in yesterday by the light by the front door.  Went to move what he thought was just a bunch of leaves and debris that had got caught up during the winter, turned out to be a birds nest with about 6 teeny tiny eggs in it!  He put it back, at least until the little ones are gone.

He also fixed my desk so that I can have my arms on it without the edge cutting in and cuttin off the circulation.  So far seems to be working fine.  Don't see any reason for it to change.

Don't forget that in a week (Sunday the 9th) it is Mother's Day.  My mom called and asked what we were doing,  her and my brother are planning on coming down, if not for the weekend, at least for the day.  Hopefully the weather is nice and we can b-b-q.  Would like to make ribs.  Start them the day before in a slow oven to get them nice and tender and then finish them off on the grill.  Will have to wait and see what develops.

Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Wednesday, Anniversary>family>didn't forget

All right I may have gotten the days mixed up, but I knew it was Adam and Miranda's Anniversary this week.  Hard to believe that it has already been 3 years.  Time goes by so fast, one day they are in diapers, the next day they are changing diapers (on their children).

Not a whole lot to write about today.  The days just seem to flow one into the other.  I can't wait to get back to work so I have something to report.  It is amazing what people will say out in public when speaking to someone they don't know!  A couple of years back I actually had one customer bitching because our gas prices were lower than anybody else's.  Why would you complain about that?  Wouldn't you just quietly fill up and go on your merry way?  Oh well, it takes all kinds.

It is so nice to have Arlen sleeping in the bedroom again, it is so frustrating that he will sleep until 1 or 2 in the afternoon.  Mostly because I am unable to do so.  Last night the tv stayed off and the radio was on, the door was shut (no cats) it was so peaceful you would've thought that I would sleep so well, not so.  Was still up by 5 this morning.  Around 6 or so all kinds of ambulances, fire trucks and police cars went screaming by.  It is so much fun to watch our cats scatter!  They are all such chicken s****!  Sure hope that nobody was hurt in whatever was going on.  That is the time that a lot of kids are getting ready for school or on the bus already.

Made a cream of potato soup with ham and carrots.  It turned out so good, every time I go in the kitchen, I have to have a spoon ful.  Better than having to throw it away.  There are times that I don't have a lot of luck with the cream soups from scratch.  When they turn out though, wow.

This Saturday is Hutchinson's city wide garage sale day.  Alas, another weekend without any money.  That's okay, it is our weekend to have Miss Lily.  The time spent with her is worth more than anything I could possibly find at a sale.  I don't really have any reason for going to sales,  it is just something to do.  The only thing that I would be looking for is a car seat that is between infant and older child.  Discovered that behind my back seats are the hooks for stablizing the darn thing!  Only had the car for over a year, and just figured out what those were for.  That's what happens when you don't have to use them.

Well, time to go wash my kitchen curtains and get the floors cleaned.  Have a great day!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Wow, Tuesday!

Well have gotten a lot done so far.  Load of dishes done, bathroom straightened out, car cleaned and vacuumed, car windows cleaned, ran and got our strawberry plants and tomatoes.  Now I can just sit back and think about tomorrow.

Nothing going on tomorrow, just like the thought that I don't have anything else to do, with the exception of making supper.  Cream of ham and potato soup from scratch, not hard or time consuming.

Weather is beautiful, can't complain about it, did I move out of Minnesota?  Still have to mow, but oh well, it will always be there tomorrow.

Got my payment sent off for my health insurance, after not having any for the past 2-3 years, it will seem odd to be able to make a Dr. app't.  Nothing wrong, just a few things that need to be checked out.

I will also be able to get new glasses.  I do know that I will never go back to America's Best again.  The two pairs that I got basically fell apart, had to put new screws in both pairs.  My sunglasses, twice.  Once I went to put them on, after taking them out of my purse, and one of the screws was gone!  What's up with that?

Life only gets more and more curiouser the longer I live it.

Have a great day!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Another day, another cloud

Cloudy outside with a chance of rain.  I know that we needed the rain, but it would be nice to have a little bit of sunshine thrown in also.  Our grass so needs to be mowed, refuse to do it when it's wet.

We have areas that we need to get tilled up and ready for planting.  We are going to be putting in strawberries and tomatoes to start with.  Would like to get some rhubard, but we'll see, it is so expensive.  I think it would be worth the money since we both enjoy eating, cooking and baking with it.  My favorite thing is a rhubard custard pie.  I can taste it now.

The greenhouse in Lester Prairie had bare root strawberries, 25 for $15.00.  The anticipation of biting into the first one of the season, with the ripe juice running down my face and hands and making everything sticky is almost to much to bare.  Not to mention the jams, jellies, preserves and ice cream topping that we will get to make.  Oh yum,  I can taste it now.

Arlen's celiac block seems to working very well.  yesterday he helped me in the bedroom.  He put up a sturdy shelf to hold my computer and printer, moved the desk into a different spot and hooked everything up again.  I don't think that I have ever had so much room in this room since it was empty.

Pretty soon I will have to get the laundry going and straighten out the living room.  Since he is now sleeping in the bedroom again, I will actually have a living room.  For years he slept (if you can call it that) on the couch so that he wouldn't bother me at night.  With the pain he wasn't able to lay the way that he wanted to.  Now I have to get used to him on the bed instead of the cats. Who by the way are now happy with the new circumstances.  They were used to having that side all to themselves.  Lots of dirty looks going around from 8 pairs of eyes!  Too bad, when they start paying some of the bills I will invest in a bed for them (not),

I heard from my new bosses on Friday.  They figure that in about 3 weeks or so they should be ready to have the store open.  I can't wait to be a productive member of this wonderful tax paying society.  One of these times when I talk to them I suppose that I should find out what they plan on paying me.  My hours will be 4:30 AM - 1 PM  Monday through Friday.  Perfect.  I am usually awake at that time anyway, so might as well be doing something besides playing solitaire.  I'm not sure what their plans for the weekends and holidays are, so will be ineresting to find out all of that.  As long as I'm not in charge of it or the hiring, I am looking forward to being a happy camper.  Go to work, come home, don't have to worry about who is going to be calling with some cockamaimie story about why they can't work.  Lyle and Cindy are planning on working the afternoon shift, and most of the weekend shifts for now.  No slacking off for the poor suckers who get hired for those shifts!

Have a great day!