Thursday, April 28, 2011

Trying hard to ignore

I am trying very hard to ignore all the negative goings on at work.  It is so very easy to get sucked into someone else's comlaints when you work with them every day.

I would like to enjoy going to work again.  At first I was puitting it down to all the other shifts, but somehow that doesn't feel right anymore.  I have put up with a lot from my co-worker.  More than I probably should have.  Tomorrow I will have to listen to her gripe about the one who works in the afternoon.  They are like oil and water.

No matter, I am going to try very hard to keep a positive outlook and look at thing differently.  After all, if all I do is bitch about things, that doesn't make me any better than the other ones.

My note to the owners seems to have helped.  I'm hoping that it keeps up.  If everyone would just do their job on their shift and let the other ones worry about themselves, wouldn't it be better?  Not just for us but for out customers also?  So that is what I am going to do.  Go to work, do my job, feel appreciated, if not from the owners at least from myself.  I think I deserve it.  So what if I have to pat myself on the back and say job well done,  at least I will be hearing it.

So, here's to positive thinking, positive attitudes and being positive that I am doing the absolute best that I can.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Frustrated beyond belief!

What iis it with some people?  They show up for work late (when they show up), leave work early, and then have the balls to complain about the next shift showing up late?  I don't get it.

The girl that I work with is on time if she shows up late by 10 minutes, she leaves work early so she doesn't have to see one of the afternoon people, and yet today she actually made this comment, "If you are going to leave around noon, they should have someone else coming in at that time".  I get there at 4 am, which is 15 minutes before I have to be there, I don't leave if there are things to do until they are done, plus I am alone for the first 1 1/2 hours of the day.  She gets rattled if there are more than 2 people waiting in line, get over it all ready.

Friday she didn't bother to show up at all, didn't bother to call in until I had called her to see if she was planning on coming to work, ended up finding someone to come in at 10 so that I could actually leave on time.  This morning, it seemed that the same thing was going to happen.  However, I refuse to call her anymore.  I am not her boss, her mother, or her fill in.  She is 33 years old with a family, how does she handle it being that inconsiderate of other people?

To top it off, we were left with no ones, quarters or tens to use in the tills.  What? is this a store or what?

I was actually putting away groceries from last Tuesday this morning.  Nobody else seems to think it is their job to do this.  The one pop vendor plopped down the 2 liters in the back room, there is a shelf for them by the pop.  So I put them where they belonged.  If I hadn't done this the grocery delivery would have had no place to be un-loaded.  The weekend and evening people seem to think that they don't have to break down their boxes and place them in the dumpster.  They just pile them up and leave them.  Tired and frustrated by the inconsideration that goes on there.

On the plus side, we were extremely busy this morning, hope that keeps up.  Although I don't know how the other people will get anything done. Oh year, they don't do anything now.

I am now done ranting, feel a little bit better.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Winter, who neds it?

So they have snow in the forcast again.  I am really tired of wind, cold and wet, whether it is rain or snow.  I am so ready for Spring to get here, and stay.

I guess I am not the only one to feel this way.  Shouldn't we have a say in it?  Where do we go to vote on who controls the outside thermostat?

The other day I wrote about working with idiots.  Here is more proof.  Yesterday, our Coke delivery guy wa telling us that the broad, who is suppose to be in charge of the pop order, called up and demanded that they send her a different rep.  Silly person, Mike is as good as they get.  he knows what he is doing, does it well and is easy to get along with.  He must have told her no about something, and she didn't like it.  Too bad.  He is already going out of his way to be accomodating to her, to likewise in return.  Told you, I work with some idiots.

So, Saturday in the cold and wet we (by we, I mean, Collin, Amber, Miranda and Adam) got the storage unit cleaned out, sorted and pretty much ready for the sale.  Ended up filling the dumpster here, that's the way it goes.  In 20+ years, I have never filled the dumpster up.  Yesterday, Dave came and got the stove, an old metal box spring and some shelving,  There is actually a floor out there!  Forgot about that.

Next week the weather is suppose to be better (fingers crossed) so I should be able to get out and start getting it organized.  It will be sad to see it all go, but it has to be done.  After all, what am I going to do with a storage unit full of tools?  I have the ones I want and need.  I'm hoping to make a good amount of money, could sure use it.  But then, who couldn't.

Well that's whats been going on here.  Hope you have a good day.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Idiots, every single one!

Why is it in the work place, there are more idiots than not?  You know who I mean, every place has them.  Too bad they don't recognize themselves.  Too bad we just can't come out and tell them, your are an idiot.

We have the winner of the idot contest at work.  She thinks she knows everything about everything, and yet is so clueless on how things work, she just look ridiculous.

Yesterday, 7-Up came in to stock their shelves, well instead of breaking down their boxes right away and putting them in the dumpster, they left them.  Then had the gall to leave a note asking us to catch the garbage guy so we could haul out their garbage.  Excuse me.  We have better things to do then sit by the back door and wait for the garbage truck.  Needless to say the boxes didn't get put oout.  She is worried that the dumpster will be full before the next pickup, duh!  Of course it's going to be full, take out your damn boxes!
She then proceeds to call me at home,  did we catch the garbage man?  Does it look like we did?  The boxes are still there.

When I make the comment that Lyle should really have 2 dumpsters, 1 for boxes, 1 for trash, she then says it's not up to the garbage company but Lyle.  What?  Did I miss something here?  Idiot, idioit, idiot.

Anyway, don't have to deal with her or the store for 2 days.  Yeah!

Tomorrow, Collin, Amber, Miranda and Adam are all coming to help with the storage unit.  Adam is bringing a trailer to haul everything back here to the dumpster.  Will make things much easier and faster.,  When we get done with the garbage, can haul everything that is boxed up for the sale out there, and I can hopefully have a clutter free house.  28 years, never had a clutter free house.  Am enjoying it now.

I made up my chicken casserole, so that is ready for the crock pot.  Tasted really yummy.  Took 3 chicken breasts, diced them, seasoned and browned, added to egg noodles, cream of chicken soup and corn.  Even if they don't like it, I do.  I now have a chocolate cake in the oven.  Going to serve that up with whipped cream and raspberries in place of frosting.

Right away in the morning, I am going to make a big pot of coffee, the old fashioned way, on top of the stove to bring with out there.  Also plan on making blueberry muffins for breakfast.  Yummy.

I want to get before, during and after pictures of the unit.  Should be interesting.  Will keep you posted.

Have a great weekend, don't let the weather deter you from your plans,  it will change!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Trying to be productive

Been trying to find things to do.  Can't stand just sitting around.  Went out and washed the windows.  Let the sun shine!

I didn't realize how high up they actually were, good thing I had a long handled squeegie.  Does feel good to have it done at least once.  The bottom windows I can get from the inside, they tilt in.

Opened the one window in the dining room, what a nice breeze coming in.  curtains look so pretty, dancing gently.

The other day as I was taking a shower, the shower head broke.  Good thing I had a spare shower that I don't use.  Just exchanged heads.

As you can see, I don't have a lot of anything interesting today.  Been trying to find a dumpster for this weekend.  Going to clean out the storage unit.  Nobody has anything the size I need for temporary projects.  What's up with that?  Guess we will just be hauling it all back here.  Will have to pick up some large garbage bags, might be time for a quick trip to the dollar store.

Monday, April 11, 2011

4 months

It has been 4 months since Arlen passed away.  The weather is in such contrast to that day.  December 11, 2010, worst blizzrd in a long time, today, beautiful and sunny.  Had a rough time of it though.

All weekend I was just kind of off.  I knew that when the 3 month mark had come and gone that it would get harder.  He had been in the hospital for a 3 month stretch, so had nothing to compare anything to.  Today it just kind of hit me, he really is gone and not coming back.

For the past 28 years I had known an unconditional love that knew no boundries.  Although we were married for 28 years, we had known each other for almost 40.  We had our first date when we were both 14, then our next one wasn't until we were 18, after that 23.  We went to school and graduated together, were friends but not much more than that.  I married after high school and then divorced, then we got together at a dance, and the rest as they say is history.

So even though this is a sad and lonely time in my life, I will have both good and bad memories to get me through.  You see, you can't just remember the good without remembering the bad.    We had good times, rough times, and times that neither of us could remember.  I still refer to everything I do as we.  For so long it was always we or us, hard getting used to me or I.  Just doesn't feel right.  Like everyting else in life I will eather this through and hopefully come out stronger in the end.  With the support of family and friends anything is possible.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Jut blank

My mind is a total blank.  Seems to happen every Friday, at least something in my life is consistent.

Tomorrow I have to start getting the yard cleaned up.  Rain can stay away until I'm done.  Not sure what to do about all the crap that is sitting there waiting for the sale.  Maybe I'll just throw it in the back of the Jeep.  Won't be able to lift the grills without help, so they will have to wait.

I am getting antsy to have this darn sale over.  Just want to be able to breathe without thinking about it all the time.  At first I felt guilty about selling Arlen's things, but they won't do me any good just sitting here, and it is nice to have the room.  I am enjoying the un-cluttered feel, even though so many things are sitting around in boxes.  I know they won't be there much longer.

I made it through the day without getting mad at any one person.  Progress.  Fridays, I am just sick of the same people coming into the store, saying the same thing, buying the same things.  Change it up people.  Most of them are mad about the price of gas.  What am I supposed to do about it?  I have to pay the same price, probably with a whole lot less coming in.

I really, really, really want to go shopping.  Alas, my checkbook has other ideas.  Don't know what I want, or need, not the point.  I would love to have about $1000 just to go and buy a whole new wardrobe.  Throw out what I have, get some nice quality things.  Something to dream about.

I bought a new camera, which I probably shouldn't have done, but the other day I wanted to get a picture of the one cat curled up in the bathroom sink, and mine just didn't want to work.  Both of those cameras are now in the dumpster.

I would also like to be able to carpet my living room.  Since I only have the two cats left, it won't be so bad to vacuum.  Plus, I wouldn't always have to have something on my feet.  Since I lost the weight, I also lost all the padding on the bottoms of my feet, so they are very tender, and usually sore.  Carpet would feel good.

I think I'm done, just sitting here listening to nothing.  No TV, no radio, no nothing.  Have to go change that.
Have a great weekend.

Thursday, April 7, 2011


I realized last night as I sat and tried to find something to watch, that I am very angry.  Angry at the world, at the customers. at my employers, and mostly at myself.

I am angry at myself and I don't have any reason to be so.  I don't know what to do about it, to try to come to understand it, or just to let it run its course.  I'm sure that a lot of it is due to Arlen dying.  Pissed me off royally.  Can't do anything about it, just accept it, right? 

For so many years I felt as though I couldn't be anygry with him.  He was ill, and there was nothing we could do about it.  If he had only taken better care of himself when he had the chance.  The chance to quit drinking, the chance to clean up his act, just the chance.  That chance has come and gone.  And I'm angry about that also.

I am hoping that every day that I don't blow up at somebody, it will get easier to understand.  Being angry is part of life, not the best part, but a part of it.  Blowing up at somebody is actually good for you.  It helps to air any problems, helps to lower your blood pressure, etc., etc.  Yeah right.

My doctor really wants me to quit smoking.  You know what, screw her.  I have given up so many things in the past year, let me do this on my own time.  She may say she knows what I'm going through.  No she doesn't.  Even if you have gone through a loss of your own.  It is your own, and you need to deal with it in your own way.  I have some idea of what others have gone through and felt, but I would never presume to know exactly what they are feeling.

In the past 6 years I have lost my father, my husband and my father-in-law.  3 very important male figures in my life.  Lots to handle.  Throughout my life, not only have I lost those 3, but a son, 2 grandfathers, numerous uncles.  How much is one supposed to take?

I know that they say that God only gives you what you can handle, but come on.  A litle bit less would have been nice.

I am angry, but I am also grateful.  Grateful for the love and faith that was put in me by these men.  Granteful that my children and their families are healthy and doing good.  Grateful that they are a big part of my life.  Without them, I don't know that I would ever be able to get past all of this.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Oh my

Since it is Wednesday (but feels like Thursday) and since I have absolutely nothing to write about, I guess that I will just ramble on for a bit.

The weather is finally co-operating.  By the end of the week I hope to be able to get out in the yard and start cleaning up.  There are a few shingles still laying around.  I don't know if they are from the first time they blew off, or from when they replaced them.  Doesn't matter, still need to be picked up.

I can't wait to get rid of the 2 grills that are sitting outside.  I never did like the looks of them, and now I can finally get rid of them.  If you know anyone who would like to buy a 6 burner gas grill with tank and hoses for $50.00 you know where to find me.  I also have a charcoal grill, pretty good size, for $30.00.  You can even have all the wet sloppy charcoal that is there!

I have no idea what to do with myself this weekend.  I would like to get out to storage and get a start, so here's hoping that happens.  Would like to get one wall cleared off so I can start taking everything out there and stacking it up, getting it out of the house would be so wonderful.  Would be doubly wonderful if I were to find the leaf for my table.  Haven't seen it in 2 years.  May be time for a new set.  By new, I mean used.  Have to decide before Easter.  Have a whole house full coming.

I do like it when everyone shows up, tires me out, but in a good way.  I enjoy the cooking and getting caught up with everyting going on.  My getting everyone caught up takes about 2 minutes.  Nothing ever changes here.  Get up in the morning, go to work, come home, play on the computer, maybe do a load of dishes, make supper, go to bed, repeat.  Exciting huh?  But, everyone knows where I am all the time.

I put a roast in the oven for tonight.  Not sure what I am going to do with it,  depends on if I feel like peeling potatoes or not or if I'll just have sandwiches.  Right now sandwiches are winning.  Potatoes and gravy would sure taste good though.  We'll see.

So, that's my Wednesday, hope yours is going good, get out and enjoy the sunshine!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011


During the past 2 days I have managed to have 1 argument per day.

Yesterday it was with the guy I called about getting our gas pumps up and running.  None of the different grades of gas were being dispensed.  He tried to tell me that it couldn't happen to all of them at once and did I know the difference between them.  What?  I work at a convenience store, oh yeah, we sell gas!  Blew up at him.  He deserved it.

Today a truck driver came in and proceeded to tell me that I did not know how to do a T-Check with an authorzization code.  Once again I repeat, I work at a convenience store.  The past couple of days someone has been doing his code incorrectly.  I blew up.  I don't think I have ever had that loud of an argument with a customer before.  Moral:  customer is not always right.  We did get it straightened out and hopefully the next time (ugh) he comes in, this can be avoided.

Maybe tomorrow I will have a calmer day. 

Gas price in St. Boni was at 3.79 per gallon.  Come on people, get real.  How can they make any money selling it 20 cents higher than most of us around here?  Little bit of gouging going on?  I know that down in the cities that is where the price is at, still ridiculousl.

Next week at work, we start making our own donuts again.  Good thing I remember how to do them, since it was my idea.  Did a comparison between the cost of doing them our selves and getting in the thaw & serve.  About a 30 - 50 cent difference.  At least we will be making a bit more per donut, and can always make more fresh if need be.  The thing with donuts is this, if they haven't sold by noon, they probably won't sell.  We have a couple of people (I use the term loosely) that work in the afternoon, that think it is just wrong for the display case to be empty.  Idiots.

So far, that is how my week is going, and it's only Tuesday!

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Becoming self sufficient

I have discoved something new about myself this past week.  I can be self sufficient.  I don't necessarily need to have people around me all the time, and I can learn how to do simple things around the house.  I always knew how to do the simplest, but I'm talking about dismantling a bed, putting it back together, you know the stuff we have husbands for.

I finally got both the bedrooms done, the kitchen table moved, cabinets moved and I am still alive to talk about it.

Taking the bed apart was very interesting.  Foot board, no problem, first side of head board no problem, second side, problem.  Bolts didn't want to come loose.  Had to find the old socket set, then figure out how to use the darn thing.  I did.  Putting it back together was another problem.  Cast iron head and foot board, heavy.  Went to put the head board onto the frame, darn thing damn near fell on my head.  Luckily it missed.  Got it together, wrong position in room.  Clear everything out to move bed around.  Got it done, made and looking pretty good.  Few little things to move around in there, but it is ready for visitors.

I did end up with a very sore back.  Tried to get out of bed this morning, couldn't hardly stand up straight.  Laid back down for a little while, semed to help.  I have been sleeping so good on the twin bed, 7 to 8 hours at a time.  Haven't done that for I don't know how long.

Got up around 4:30, had coffee and a fruit roll up for breakfast.  Gathered all my garbage together, had it out by 6.  Of course, throughout the day I have managed to accumulate more.  Another trip in the morning.  Got my bed stripped, and re-made, laundry all done, dishes done, cake made, kitchen table moved into the new dining room.  So I am now ready to lay down.

One problem, as soon as I lay down and start to drift off, the neighbor decides that is when he has to load up his snowmobile.  I am pretty sure this is the same one who got hung up on ice.  Brilliant person.  Revving that thing up, hope he burned something out.  Serve him right.  Idiot.

What a beautiful day weather wise.  I opened up a few windows to air out the old house.  Turned the thermostat down to 60, and enjoyed the fresh air coming in.  Have since closed a couple of the windows, but hey, I'm not that young any more.  Cold air just gets to me faster.

Was planning on going out to storage and starting in there, guess it will have to wait until next weekend.  After all the crap isn't going any place (although I wish it would run away).  So that's been my day so far and it is only 1:30.  What to do, What to do.

Enjoy the day and the sunshine.