Friday, May 28, 2010

Here we go

Don't know for sure where we're going, but we're going to get there.  Friday morning, last day of the work week, weekend here soon,  what are your plans?  Going to the lake?  Going to be outside doing lawn work?
Going visiting someone?  Doesn't really matter as long as you are going.

In a much better place mentally this morning.  Got some sleep, not continuous, but I think enough.  Sleep is such a wonderful thing that so many of us take for granted.  We go to bed at night because we are tired, either mentally or physically.  We lay down, get comfortable and wham, nothing.  Either our minds won't shut down or our body won't cooperate.  Bummer.  So we do the best that we can.  With luck or with help eventaually the eyes close and we lose touch with the day to day activities that keep us going.  Hopefully it will be for 7 or 8 hours, but now always.  In my case I usually get 2-3 hours at a time and then awake for a while.  Which would explain the crankiness and being unmotivated to do anything.

My house is such a mess.  Nothing that a good hour or two wouldn't do.  I don't have any laundry to do, thank goodness, just dishes and general picking up.  Oh yeah, and the litter boxes, yuk.  Arlen has been absolutely no help at all.  Not sure why, but after 28 years I keep expecting him to start helping out around here.  Blasted mothers that do everything for their boys.  They really aren't thinking clearly about what the future wives have to say to all that.

I mean, seriously, when they reach the age where they are asking where their clean clothes are, show them how to use the washer and dryer.  When they are asking what there is to eat, show them the fridge and stove.  When they complain or even mention the state of the living room, show them the vacuum cleaner and dust rag.  Get them ready for life, unless you want them to remain little boys when they reach the age of 50 and you are still doing everything for them, hopefully you are still around to do it.

So many people are ill prepared to face life on their own or with their own family.  It also makes them think that everyone owes them something.  Got news for you.  I don't owe anybody anything.  I only owe myself to have the best that I can get, whether it is a clean house, clean car or a better job.  If someone thinks that is a selfish idea, too bad.  The one thing that I will give freely is the support and love that my family needs, whether they want it or not.  I can be stubborn, I can also be a pushover.  Sometimes it is just more fun to be a pushover, not neccasarily easier, just more fun.

I've had numerous people make comments on how they couldn't go through what I have in the last 7 years.  You don't know this until it all happens to you.  In the long run it more than likely won't and you should count you blessings every day that the day goes by without any major problems.  It is so easy to take it all for granted when everything is working the way it is supposed to and oh so easy to leave when things take a turn for the worse.  You find out a lot about your character when faced with difficult decisions and life choices.  After all, where exactly would I go?  I never once entertained a serious thought of leaving,  dreamt about a little vacation from it all once in a while.

I have also found out in the past 6-8 months that I am not looking forward to retirement.  This whole 24/7 thing is highly over rated.  There is only so much to talk about, to do or to go.  So I think that once I am back to work I will just plan on staying there and working until I drop dead there.  By then I should have lost the ability to hear complaints and the ability to hold my bladder, but who cares, when you get really old, people expect you to stink a little!

Have a great weekend, long one on top of that.  I will be talking to you again on Tuesday next week.

Thursday, May 27, 2010


I'm sitting here at 2 in the morning trying to figure out people and life.  So far the only conclusion I have come up with is that for the most part the people you love can be the most inconsiderate and selfish people in your life.

Sound bitter and resentful?  You bet!  I have gotten to the point where I don't dare go to sleep, I know that as soon as I do, Arlen is going to wake me up with some stupid question.  He doesn't seem to care if I get any sleep or rest, as long as he is comfortable.  I know that he is going through a bad time right now with his pain meds, but God, give me a break.  It doesn't just affect him.  I get stressed out and my back gets so stiff and sore that I can't hardly walk.  Can't lay down, have a hard time sitting on a chair.  Nothing I do will ease the hurt, and all I want to do is break down, throw a tantrum, throw anything, don't even care what it is.

If I could afford to, I would be out of here in a heart beat.  Not for good, just for a day or two of mental wellness.  I have even thought of getting in the car, going out to the public landing, and just laying back in the seat and trying to sleep.  At least no one around here would lthink to look for me there.

I don't ask a lot of other people, have always felt that I needed to handle this thing on my own.  As you can tell it isn't working.  We're supposed to go to St. Cloud for Lily's Birthday party on Saturday.  I am hoping that Arlen doesn't want to make the trip.  On the other hand, I can't trust him with the pills if I leave them behind.  He is one of those people that have a very addictive personality.  He can't take anything only when he absolutely needs it.  He thinks he needs it all the time.  I have talked to different Doctors about a pain management clinic, I never get a straight answer  Either way, I am going on Saturday.  To hell with what he wants.  maybe I'll get his sister to take him for the day, bad when you have to find a babysitter for a 52 year old man.

I think that later on I will go up to the clinic and see if I can get in to see Dr. Midwinter about my back.  I can't keep going like this.  Be a good one, I need pain pills and something to help me sleep.  You know how it goes, someone asks how's it going, and you automatically say, great, fine, couldn't be better.  You say these things because you know they really don't care, even if it is family.

Arlen's sister thinks that I am a strong person for putting up with all of this for the last 7 years.  I'm not strong, I just know that there is no one to help.  Oh they all offer, but when you need them, they are busy.  Make time god dammit.  I can't do this alone anymore.

On the flip side, the store is going to open before Winstock weekend.  I will be going in for training on the new register system on the 8th of June.  I can't wait.  I will actually be able to get away from the house!

I am going to go and play some games now, since I am wide awake, more than likely for the rest of the day.
Have a good day.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Forgetting dialog

I had every thing plotted out in my head last night of what to write about, twice!  Woke up this morning, poof, gone, right down to the last detail.  If you continually think about something before going to sleep, wouldn't you expect it to still be there when you open your eyes?  My mistake, now you will just have to suffer with all of my ramblings once again.

They got done digging in the yard yesterday.  They had to put in some kind of traps for the sewer system.  Stupid people keep flushing things down the toilet that should go in the garbage.  Now our yard looks like a mess and they are still going to be stupid.  I can fix the yard, but as Jeff Foxworthy says, "You can't fix Stupid!".

Not too bad temperature wise right now.  If it could stay this way all day it would be almost perfect.  The hot weather isn't so bad, it is the darn humidity that gets to a person.  My biggest pet peeve during the summer and winter is the people who go around saying how much they enjoy the heat/cold.  If they enjoy it so much why do they have AC in the summer?  I can understand the furnace in the winter, especially in Minnesota, but let's get real.  If you enjoy the hot days of summer so much, I dare you to get rid of every single AC unit you have, you know, house, car, cabin, tractors, etc.  You should be relishing in the hot, sticky, stinky humidity.  Be outside, do things that make you sweat even more.  No one will want to be around you, but hey, you're enjoying the heat.  That also means no bars or restaurants with AC.  I have had frost bite and heat stroke.  Believe me when I say that I no longer enjoy winter and summer.  Your whole body changes after that, your tolerance goes down and nothing is fun or pleasant anymore. 

As a kid we neither remember or complain about the outside temps.  Mainly because we had no choice in the matter.  We were not allowed to sit around inside and do nothing.  If you were inside you had inside chores to do, if you were outside, you had outside chores to do. Didn't hurt us any.  The only game systems we had were called board games.  No DVD's, no MP3, no iPod, barely any stereo, oh yeah if you were lucky to have one it only worked with LP's.  TV was a joke.  There were the following channels: 4,5,9,11,12 and don't forget the important one Channel 2 TPT.  We watched what our parents watched, not much choice, what with the one TV in the house.  Heaven forbid we had to get up and manually change the stations.  We were what our parents would have called their remote controls.

Wasn't all bad.  We spent an awful lot of time with friends doing nothing.  Going swimming in a lake that had pasture all around it (do you know what cows do in the water?), fishing, biking (pedal kind), playing tennis, hanging out at the pool hall (yep, she had AC, why do you think we hung out there?).  Child hood is a glorious time in our lives and if we are lucky enough to have lots of good memories we are truly blessed.

Have a great day!

Monday, May 24, 2010

Oh Monday, Monday

I keep thinking that I am hearing thunder.  May have to go check it out sometime.  Finally broke down and put the AC in the bedroom.  What a difference.  Felt so good to take a shower and not have wet hair all day.

Have any of you ever tuned in to KTLK 100.3 FM?  All talk radio.  Some of the topics are pretty interesting.  They really get going on Obama, that's always fun to listen to.  They have also lately been talking about Mexico and the illegal aliens.  Evidently it is ok for them to come here, but if you show up there illegally, you can be exported or imprisoned for up to 10 years.  Even to talk in favor of illegal aliens can get you jail time.  Do you really want to go to that country for anything?

It's too bad that the US doesn't have the same type of laws for dealing with our problem.  No, let's give them homes, jobs, couny assistance, worker's comp, unemployment, credit cards, free schooling, etc. etc.  I personally think that we should be taking care of our own before trying to take care of someone else's.  Just my opinion.

Okay enough of my high horse.  Yesterday I got so hungry for a fresh, homemade donut.  So I whipped up a batch and made donut balls.  Yep, exactly what I needed.  That and cold jell-o, made that too.  Both go really well with coffee.

We got a 18 cup perculator pot for the stove for $1 at a garage sale.  Nothin beats perked coffee.  The smell, the taste, the heat of it, just perfect. So now about every other day, I make a big pot and then put it in the air pot, stays hot for at least a day and a half.  Saves lots of coffee that way.  We don't throw out nearly as much as when we use the Bunn maker we have.  Coffee unless it is kept in an air tight container, becomes stale and oily.  Not an attactive site, plus it just doesn't get as hot, and let's face it, coffee is supposed to be burn your mouth hot.

I see that they are here to start digging in our yard.  Not sure what it is they are digging up, but the cable, gas, electric and phone people were here last week marking everything out.  I'm pretty sure that it has something to do with the sewer.  Hopefully, they respect the fact that where they are going to dig, is real close to where the strawberries and tomatoes are planted.  That is probably a false hope, but being the ever optimistic person I know I can be, I'm still hoping.  At least they are doing it while all the kids are in school.  I like kids, don't get me wrong, just not other people's.  Does that make any sense at all?

Just looked out the window, yep, they are idiots.  Only women should be able to dig up yards.  At least we appreciate the plantings.  Alright, I was wrong, they have missed the plants so far.  Would have been nice if we had been informed that they were going to do this and why. Not a word.  Love that communication!

Wow, I have just gone on and on.  Makes a difference when there is a couple of days in between.  My brain has a chance to come up with topics.  Have a great day!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Here we come, marchin' down the street....

Title has nothing to do with anything.  Watched the BIO channel last night, and they did a bio on Davy Jones and the Monkees.

Miranda got some great news yesterday.  The place where she used to work, called and wants her back on Monday.  WOOHOO!  I know she wasn't thrilled about where she is now, especially after they decided not to keep her on after the 90 days temp.  Worst part, they hired a replacement about a month before her 90 was up.  Bad business practices if you ask me.  She will be much happier and content back at the old place.

It is hard to believe that it is already Friday, where does the time go?  Yesterday I woke up with no ambition to accomplish anything.  However, I managed to get a pot roast in the slow cooker for supper, got 1 loaf of bread, a dozen buns and a dozen cinnamon rolls made, plus got all the garbage out, and the dishes done.  Really makes me wonder what I could do if I had some ambition.  So far today, zilch.

I know that it is either misting or drizzling out, I can hear it on the road when the cars go past.  It is so light that you can't see it.  I'm sure the strawberries and tomatoes are enjoying it.  Wish they were ready now.  Next week I am going to order a couple of blueberry plants.  Probably won't get any this year to eat, but I have a whole year to look forward to it.

Guess that will do it for now, have a great weekend!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

No energy or enthusiasm

I really don't feel like doing this today.  Not sure what I did yesterday, but my back is hurting again.  When that happens any energy I have is used up just trying to move around.

I know that I have to get the garbage out today.  It isn't stinky or anything, it's just time to do it.  Suppose to be Arlen's job, but I have found that if I want it done, I need to do it myself.  Makes me kind of worried about when I go back to work.  How much is he going to keep up with everything or am I going to have to do it when I get home every day. I actually know the answer to that one.  It will have to be done when I get home.

It is hard to believe that the little miss is going to be 2 in a week.  She has been growing up so fast and changing so much this last year.  Now it is just a matter of time to get her potty trained.  Always a relief to have that done, no more diapers!  Not that there is anything wrong with diapers, they do serve a definate purpose, but oh, to have them gone.

Arlen talked to his dad last night.  He figures that they will keep him in Souix Falls for at least another week.  Good.  Get his meds, sleeping and diabetes not to mention physical therepy under control.

I keep going over the same old things.  My mind is just in kind of a jumble lately.  That is what happens when you don't have any contact with people.  Nothingnew ever comes into your life.  I shouldn't say that I guess, especially since Miranda is pregnant with baby #2.  She is due around Dec. 7th.  I can't wait, of course that does mean more diapers!  I just wish that she were having an easier time of it.  This pregnancy isn't agreeing with her very well.  I know that she is already looking forward to having it over with.  Hopefully the next 6 months go fast and she starts to enjoy the experience.  If nothing else it will be something that she can hold over the child's head for the rest of his/her life.

I talked to my mom last night also, she doesn't have to have the injections in her eye anymore.  Whatever the drops were that they had her putting in, seem to have done the trick.  So yeah!  It was nice to get some good news for a change.

We have Jordans graduation coming up on the 5th of June.  Should be the last one until thegrandkids start graduating.  The following week we have Brandons birthday party, then Father's Day.  4 weekends in a row of things to do.  Been a long time since that has happened.

Alright, I'm going to stop the babbling and try to decide what to do first.  Maybe I will throw together some bread, rolls and buns.  Yummy!  Have a wonderful day, enjoy the weather.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Politics, Religion & Everything Else!

I know that a lot of people use their blogs for spouting off about politics and politicians, religion and whatever else they can think of.   I don't seem to have an opinion one way or another.  Politics is rather boring and religion, well, I think that is a very personal issue and however you want to believe is up to you.  It is not my place to force it on you, or yours to force it on me.

I get e-mails constantly from one person, sending different religion and faith messeges.  I end up just deleting them all.  My faith is mine, I know what I believe and I just don't think that I need to hear about theirs all the time.

Took a shower this morning and when I got dressed I actually put on a pair of jeans!  I haven't had jeans on in I don't know how long.  Since I have lost weight, they just fit funny and aren't comfortable.  But I thought, what the heck, I'd try it today.  As of right now they feel pretty good.

Not sure what the plan for today is other than paying a couple of bills.  I don't get it, I pay them and they just keep coming back!  Kinda like weeding in the garden or mowing the lawn, another one of those things that just never gets done all the way.  Oh to be rich and be able to pay them once a year!  Just think of all the extra money you would have the other 11 months.  SHOPPING!

Arlen's dad is doing really well.  They had him sitting up in a chair yesterday, and he figures he'll be able to go home in a couple of days.  Not.  They will hopefully keep him there to get his breathing, diabetes and sleep apnea under control.  Not to mention all his meds, and the correct way to take them.  I do know that they were going to have a Health Care Nurse coming out, hope they follow up with that.  That way there would be somebody to set up his meds and chart for him when to take them.  Right now Duane is doing that, but I think he is doing it all wrong.  If he wants to be in charge, then he really should go and take classes on how to do it, and follow them the right way.

Okay, now that I have had my couple of minutes to unload, I hope that your day goes as smooth as possible without any complications, worries or nonsense involved with life.  Have a great day.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Another sleepless night

I don't know why I am so blessed with the ability not to sleep, I will gladly pass it on to anybody who wants it.  Wouldn't be so bad except for the fact that during the day I am so tired I have to push myself to get anything done.

Got alot done yesterday.  Lawn mowed, garden area getting prepped to plant tomatoes and strawberries.  Dishes done, Laundry done/  Wish I had a clothes line so that I could hang out the laundry.  Nothing smells as good as sun and wind dried clothes and linens.  Maybe this week I'll figure out where to put a clothes line.

Arlen's dad is doing really well.  They took out the breathing tube yesterday.  He was very happy to have it out so that he could eat.  Eating is always a good sign of recovery.  Or so I've been told.  Jan, Glenn and Arlen's mom, Doris, are going out on Wednesday to see him.  Wish Arlen would go with, not sure how the trip would affect him.  We haven't been any place since he had the latest procedure done.  I could really use a day all to myself, selfish huh?

I can't believe that Lily is going to be turning 2 in a week or so, and that next month Brandon will be turning 9.  I think the time goes by even faster for grandkids than it did for our own.  Going to be a busy 3-4 weeks.  Lily's birthday, Jordan's graduation, Brandon's birthday and Father's Day.  Other than the graduation, everything else requires driving, which I don't mind, but once in a while it would be nice if Arlen would drive so that I could just sit back and relax.  I'm not the best passenger in the world, done the driving for too long, and I do like to be in control in the car, but that doesn't mean that I'm not willing to change.

I have found that when I do this early in the morning, I have a tendency to ramble on and on about absolutely nothing.  So, if this gets really boring for you to read, please feel free to exit out of it and read someone else's, it has to be more interesting that this nonsense.  I can't even think of anything witty or sarcastic to write.  Not being sarcastic is very strange as that is part of my humor.  Of course you have to know me well to know this. Both Collin and Miranda have inheirited this wonderful trait.  At least they both got something from me, not sure if that is a good thing to pass on or not.

I think that I will quit while I am ahead, or at least think I am ahead.  Hope you all have a great day and get a chance to enjoy the wonderful weather that we have been having.

Monday, May 17, 2010

No idea of what is going on

Well, today started out fairly decent.  Sun shining, light breeze what more could you ask for.

Arlen's dad is in the hospital in Souix Falls, and doing okay for now.  They transported him by helicopter from Marshall.  The biggest problem with all of this is Arlen's younger brother.  What an idiot.  Didn't let anyone know to begin with that Allen had been taken to the hospital, won't call anyone to keep them informed as to what is going on.  Jan (Arlen's sister) called out to Souix Falls to see how their dad was doing and the nurse informed her that while they were doing a procedure they almost lost him and didn't her brother call and let her know.  Jan went out there yesterday to see Allen and to find out what is actually going on.  They intubated Allen to help him breath and did a broncospopy to suction out all the phlegm and gunk from his one lung.  He was alert and in a good mood, couldn't talk of course because of the breahing tube.  They think they may be able to remove that today sometime.  Hopefully Jan got it set up for the hospital to notify her of things.

Not realy sure what Duane's motives are for keeping everyone in the dark about all of this, but no matter what they are, in my opinion they are totally selfish.  This way he can come off the big shot and go around saying that no one else cared enough to call or visit.  What a crock. The boy needs to get a life of his own and get it figured out that at the age of 47 maybe it is time to cut the umbilical cord.

Okay enough ranting and raving.

Got laundry started, not that I have a lot of it to do, but always nice to get it out of the way.  Still have to do dishes.  Why is it that those 2 household chores never seem to be completely finished?  You think you are all done doing laundry and then at the end of the day, BAM, there's more dirty clothes.  Dishes, after you get all done washing them, you look around, dirty glass or silverware that you missed.  Just think if a person was rich enough you could throw away the clothes and dishes and just buy new every day.  Although if you were that rich you could afford a maid to do all of the menial chores.  Ah, if wishes were fishes and all that good stuff.

Went garage saleing over the weekend.  Got some good stuff.  A kitchen sink with faucets- free, a car seat for the little miss, a spring horse - $1.00, a potty chair - $1.00, a new bed - $25.00, a large roaster - $2.00, a picture for the living room - $1.00, a whole bunch of tupperware - $2.00, a shredder/slicer attachment for our mixer - $3.00, a mini ice cream maker - $2.00, I think that is pretty much it.  Didn't really need the bed, but the wood one we have is in need of a re-finish and some light fixes.  The kitchen sink is a hair bigger than the one we now have, but the faucets aren't made from plastic like the one that is now in the kitchen. 
The spring horse we got just to have it here for the little miss.  Hope she likes it and isn't too afraid to sit on it and bounce.

Well, that's the long and short of what has been going on here since the last time I sat down and wrote anything.  Have a great day!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Nothing new

I am going to try and stay positive for as long as possible today.  The weather just isn't helping any.  So much rain and grey skies.  What is going to happen this summer when we really need it?  Will it come or stay away?

I don't have a lot to do today, just a few piddly dishes, but I do need to get them done.  Arlen's dad was taken back to the hospital last night.  He has some kind of infection in his lungs.  He was in there Tuesday and they let him go home Wednesday before all of the test results were back.  I was very surprised at that.  Normally they don't let you go until they have found out what the problem is.  Hopefully this time they will keep him long enough to get it taken care of.  He is not a young man anymore.  He is in his middle to late 80's, so they really do need to get the infection gone.

One of the worst things they do down there at home is this,  when the weather is nice, they never open any windows to let the fresh clean air in.  It is kept wrapped up tighter than a Chirstmas present that you forgot about.  During the winter they re-circulate the air, during the summer they re-circulate the air, but never do they just breathe in fresh air, especialy after a nice cleansing rain.  I don't know if it makes a difference or not, I only know that I feel better after having windows open.

After our meal on Mother's Day, Lily received an ice cream cone for eating so well.  She is always a good eater, it's just an excuse to give her ice cream.  She really enjoyed it, but wasn't too sure what to do about the cone itself!  Thank goodness for bibs.  Now if they could just make a self cleaning ice cream, what a perfect world it would be.  It is so hard to believe that she is going to be 2 in a week or so.  Boy does that time go fast, even more so when you don't see them 24/7.

I hope that everyone takes time to enjoy ice cream today!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

What a dreary day

Another one!  How many more of these days will it take before we all go bonkers!?

Went uptown to get jell-o, stopped in at the pharmacy to pick up part of a prescription that is "owed" to Arlen.  Guess what, they didn't have it, they had a partial part again.  No more, either give us the whole thing or let us know you don't have it so we can go somewhere else.  1 prescription and yet I'm supposed to make 3 trips to get it, I don't think so.

I finally got around to making a Dr. app't to have the mole on my back removed.  Thing has been there for about 25 years, never changed color or shape, never got bigger.  I'm just tired of being self-conscience about it.  I also need to talk to her about a couple of other things, which I'm sure will require more appointments. Thank goodness I finally got insurance.  Now I can not only see a MD but I can go get new glasses. 

The last glasses I got were from America's Best.  Never again will I go there.  I know that most people are very satisfied with them, mine keep falling apart.  Not enjoying them so much.  I do know that I will not have bi-focals put in the lenses.  I end up taking them off to do any reading or computer work anyway, so why bother.  I am excited about new ones though.  Can't wait to see what kind of frames they have.

So here is my philosophy for today.  If the weather is crappy and you don't have the energy to do anything, don't.  No one will judge you, no one will look down on you and no one will have the nerve to say anything to you about what you didn't do.  It is very hard to be motivated to be productive when the weather refuses to co-operate.  Besides that, it is the middle of the week.  You still have 2 days before the weekend, and if you haven't done anything the past 2 days, you probably don't have that much to do to start with.  I have a plaque that says, and I quote, "My house was clean last week, sorry you missed it".  I agree with my whole heart and soul.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Really crappy weather

Why does it seem that for every day of sunny days we get, we end up with twice as many cold, wet, cloudy, depressing ones?  I don't know if it is just me that feels this way or not.  Not that it makes any difference, I still haven't figured out how to control the weather. Is some of this the result of the volcano in Iceland or just Minnesota being Minnesota?  Who knows?

We are waiting for a phone call from Arlen's mom.  Yesterday they took his dad to the hospital and no one bothered to let us or Jan know.  Arlen had been trying to call all afternoon.  He finally got a hold of his brother Gary, who then told him about it.  Not sure what the reason was, from what he has been able to piece together, Allen had a bunch of fluid built up around his heart.  Don't know if that is why.  Arlen was understabably upset when his mom finally called around 8:30 pm,  wanted to know why no one bothered to let him know.  She didn't have an answer, and then when he asked why Duane couldn't have called, she didn't know what to say to that either.  Isn't this one of the main reasons that we carry cell phones?  I know it is for me.  So like I said we are waiting to hear more info, whether or not we need to go down there, or how long he will be in the hospital, or what they are doing for him.  I say, "Welcome to my world".

I have been semi-productive this morning.  Got my dishes done, the bed stripped and re-made and laundry going.  I think that is all that I am going to attempt to do today.  This weather is playing havoc with my back.  I need sunshine and warmth.  Then when I look out the window I can almost see the grass growing more and more each minute.  So as soon as it is dry enough, we mow and trim again!  Doesn't take long when we both go at it.

Well, I better go, have to wait for that call!

Monday, May 10, 2010

Weekend over, finally

Now that Mother's Day is over we have garage sale day, fishing opener and Father's Day coming up.  Why is it that once Spring hits, there is always so much to do.

Not only do we have everything above but we have Lily's birthday and Brandon's birthday during the next month.  Right now I have the time to enjoy it all, but certainly not the money.  I will make do, I always seem to.

Garage sale day in town here is this coming Saturday.  I am on the hunt for a car seat to have here and a new bed frame.  I like the bed that we have, but it is time for something different.  There are a couple listed so will go and check them out.  One is brass and the other I believe is iron..  No cats will be able to scratch on them.

We did have a good weekend.  Mom and Mike cam down on Saturday and spent the night.  Collin, Miranda and Lily came down for Sunday.  Grilled burger, brats and dogs.  Had every topping you could think of for each of them, plus fresh fruit salad, chips and dip and beans.  It looked like so much food once it was all laid out, but when you consider most of it was for the meat, it really wasn't that much.  Mom brought down the sweets like she always does, and my brother, Mike, drove so that Mom wouldn't have to.  It was nice to see and visit with him.  We seem to only get together every 5 years or so.

Lily enjoyed the chalkboard and pretty much stayed there.  She would scribble and then erase and then ask where it go?  Very fun to watch.  Didn't care too much about her other toys so the room stayed fairly clean.

Now all I have to do is recuperate and get back in the swing of things.  We did get the lawn moved and trimmed on Saturday before people showed up.  It looked so nice.  Now if we wouldn't need to mow again in a couple of days life would be almost perfect.

I have decided that I am getting tired of being asked if I have heard anything yet about when I go back to work.  As soon as I know, I will make sure to let everyone else know also.  I did check my unemployment account and have about 7 weeks left at the rate I am at now.  I will then be able to re-apply for another extension, but I'm pretty sure that I won't have to.

I think that will do it for now.  Have a wonderful day!

Friday, May 7, 2010

How did it get to be Friday?

I could have sworn 2 days ago that it was Friday.  Now that it is, I have so many things to do and I just don't want to do them.  It is always easier to work when it is sunny and warm.  But NOOOO, they are talking snow flurries this afternoon.  Where the hell is that coming from.  So glad that we haven't done any planting yet.

I got all my shopping done for Sunday.  Just have to get the kitchen and baths cleaned and then I am pretty much ready.  As much as I enjoy having company, I just as much enjoy not having it also.  I know that is a contridiction but that is just the way it is.

I was talking to my daughter yesterday, she said that they had given Lily a big box to play with and she was in 7th heaven.  What is it with kids and boxes?  They don't care what came in it, as long as they themselves fit in it.  Of course it is always good for the imagination.  They can have a house, a boat, a car, a hide out, whatever they fancy at the moment.  Why we ever buy anything except empty boxes is beyond me.

I got to thinking last night, I know!, we have a high chair that Miranda and I re-finished about 9 years ago.  This high chair converts into a chair with a tray that can be used for almost anything.  We actually painted the tray with chalkboard paint.  So today I am going out to storage to bring it back and then picking up chalk.  When Lily is here she will have a place to sit and draw or color or eat her snacks.

I finally got my insurance card, so now I can make a Dr. app't.  Was going to do that today, but I think I will wait until next week.  No particular reason, oh yeah, no money for the co-pay.  What's a couple of more days waiting when I haven't been able to go for the last 2 years or so?  Obama's health care plan is so full of holes, he just has no idea.  He wants every person to have health insurance.  What about the homeless, the unemployed and the ones who just can't afford it.  If he really wanted to do something with health care, he would get it set up like Canada and England.  There is you have a job, you are covered no matter what.  There are a lot of people out there that could be working and choose not to, them I don't feel for.

The other thing is Minnesota GAMC.  They are planning on cancelling it altogether.  Fine, cancel it on the parents that are capable of working, but keep it going for the kids and the people who really need it.  My theory is this, just because you decide that you want a whole bunch of kids in order to get more AFDC, doesn't mean that the state should have to pick up the tab for the whole shebang.  Hospitals and Dr. visits are not cheap.

The whole welfare system is totally screwed up as far as I am concerned.  Why anybody would choose to stay on it for years and years is way beyond my scope of understanding.  There is nothing more degrading than to know that you are capable of being a contributing member of society and yet choosing to do nothing.  I just don't get it.  And yes, I do have first hand experience.  We were on it for a short period of time out of necessity, but I couldn't wait to get off it.  It doesn't teach your children anything about responsibility or self worth.  It teaches them that if they play the system right, they will never have to work or take on anything that they may be a little bit uncomfortable with.  What a shame.

Have a great Mother's Day weekend!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Absolutely blank!

Guess there won't be anything written today.  My mind is a complete and total desert area.  Dry, windy, and lots of noisy sand blowing around.  Imagine sandpaper inside your head, that is what mine feels like today.

Talk with you tomorrow.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

I think I need a new picture!

Went to put a picture up on this blog, couldn't find one of myself!  Who knows, maybe I don't exist, and if I don't exist, who keeps writing this?  If you fnd out let me know by calling 1-800-She-Lives!  Of course I know you are not stupid and you realize that this number is bogus, right?

I don't know about you, but I hate having my picture taken.  I can never get my hair just right, I think that I always look heavier than I probably am, and no matter what...I just can't fake a smile.  I would much rather be the one taking the picture, just for those reasons.

I am sitting here debating whether or not I really want to take a shower.  Crazy ain't it?  If any of our numerous faucets were high enough, I would just wash my hair and be done with it, but alas, they aren't.  Not only are they not high enough, they are all made of plastic!  It just boggles my mind, you pay all this money for something only to realize later that you are paying high price or low end items.  Such is life.

They are talking about warmer weather today and then cooling off again for the rest of the week.  Sure do wish that it would even out, I have no idea how to dress for this.  The last couple of days I have had to pull some of the clothes that I put away for the season.  Just because it is Spring doesn't mean that I am going to go crazy about wearing shorts and tanks, I do like to stay warm.

I guess that now would be a good time to go all complemtative about life and my view points on certain subjects or go back and remember something from my past.  You know what I miss the most?   Of course you don't, you weren't there.  I miss laying on the fresh green grass, looking up at the sky and just watching the clouds.  Such a carefree time in life.  I also miss the one cat I had in high school.  During the winter I would get out the sled, grab the cat, and go sledding.  He actually liked it.  Can't remember the darn cats name, but do remember sledding with him.  I also miss taking out my rifle and going target shooting.  Used to be pretty good at that.  Riding bike into town, playing tennis, hanging out at Red's with friends after games and on Friday and Saturday nights.  Red's was the local pool hall/hang out spot.  The place where if you wanted to meet up with someone that is where you did it, the place that you could find out what was going on any place in the area, the place where you could be yourself without having to worry about what your parents would think.  They had either the restaurant or the bar to hang out in.

My life was pretty calm and easy, my parents lives were not, but they never let it affect us.  Lots different than now-a-days.  We try to let our kids know if things aren't going good or if they are.  If we don't have enough money to get them what they want or if somehow we can swing it.  How you have to pay bills and work in order to survive.  I am glad that I grew up as naive as I did.  In some ways it made it a lot easier and in others it was a sort of non-education as to what to expect when you got out on your own.  I'm not sure how fair I was to my own children while they were growing up.  For the most part they had to help out around the house, learn to cook, clean and do laundry.  I think looking back that I may have put too much on them and didn't let them just be the kids they should have been.  When they got old enough, they had to get jobs if they wanted to have the extra things that I couldn't give them.  This took away time from spending with their friends and just doing the nothing that kids are supposed to do.  Yes, they complained from time to time, but in the long run, they were pretty good sports about it all.

Have a great Tuesday!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Oh no, Monday already!

The weekend just kind of blew away.  What a wind we have had the last 2 days.  Hopefully, today will be a little calmer.  Even the squirrel in our one tree maaged to stay hidden and out of the wind.  Just proves that we don't have a flying squirrel!

We had the little Miss for the weekend.  Such memorable times when she is here.  She if growing up so fast, as they all do, and I am so happy that we get to watch as it happens.  She is now sleeping in the twin bed in the spare room, the crib is folded up and stored and waiting for the next one, it will be lonely for a while, but who knows? maybe one day.,

I can't wait until the first Monday that I wake up and have to groan about going to work.  I will relish it, enjoy it and embrace it, at least for a while.  I am sure that after a bit, I will feel the same way as everyone else does about Monday morning.  For now it is high on my expectation list.  It is also a good thing that the job I will be going to, I actually enjoy doing.  Although, no matter how much you enjoy something, there is always a part of it that is less than enjoyable.  It may a co-worker, your hours, your pay or in my case, one or a couple of the people that come in as customers. I am hoping that the regulars will be as happy to see me again as I will be seeing them.

Right now, my contact with the outside world is on a very limited scale.  The grocery store, the pharmacy, Casey's, you know the places that I have to go.  The ones that require food, health and gasoline.  I finally got health insurance so I will be able to add the clinic to my very short list.  But it is a different place, right now the only time I go there is to drop Arlen off and then try to find something else to do while waiting.  Good thing The Attic opened up and is not too far away from there.  That is what I am planning on doing this Wednesday.

Well, I think that I have depleted my resources for the day.  Enjoy your Monday, be it at work or if you are lucky enough to have it off, at home.