A letter to my Husband.
Dear Honey,
You have been gone for just about 6 months and I still miss you every day. I miss coming home from work and being able to tell you what all happened or didn't happen. I miss getting up at 2 in the morning and being able to have coffee with you before I leave for the day.
I miss having someone worry about me when the weather is bad and I have to drive, or you riding along just to make sure.
When we had our first date back in the 8th grade, I thought to myself, "Wow, a farmer, who would of thought it." That was a very long time ago. We met when we were 14 and are now 53! Where did the years go? They always seemed to go so fast.
When we got married, I thought about how lucky I was to have someone love me so unconditionally it was silly. But you did. You didn't care what or where or why I had done some of the things that I did, you only cared that I was with you now. You even stood up to your family for me.
You loved and cared for my son and mourned the loss of our sone, was elated at the birth of our daughter and once again mourned when we mis-carried. Through it all there were rough spots, but together we managed to pull through. We saw both of the kids grow up, graduate, get married and lead good lives. We rejoiced in the birth of all 3 grandchildren, celebrated birthdays with them, baby sat and yes we both even changed diapers! Lots of good memories there.
When you got sick, I know that you went through a major depression that you never quite got out of. You felt cheated for not being able to support us the way you wanted, of not being able to go back to work, of having to stay home and basically do nothing. For 7 years you put on a brave face and tried to down play how you were really feeling. I could see it though, I wish there would have been something that I could have done to make it better and easier for you. I hope that you know how much I loved and still love you.
When your father passed away, you went into a depression again, this time nothing could pull you out of it. You were so close to him, too bad that you two couldn't have spent more alone time with each other. We both know the reason for that. After the incident with the blood clots and the idiotic doctor telling you "You hade 5 good years" you just gave up. It was very hard to watch that happen, knowing that once again there was nothing I could do. I tried nagging, begging and making bargains with you, you stubborn Swede, none of it worked.
I guess I knew that when you went into the hospital for the last time, that you more than likely woulnd't be coming home, didn't make it any easier knowing that. At least you hve no more pain, can finally get some rest and face eternity knowing that you left behind a family that will always think about and love you.
Lily's 3rd birthday is tomorrow and Brandon will be turning 10 next month. He really misses you. The time is just flying by, it is so hard to believe that 6 months have gone by. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you. So many times I catch myself saying, I have to remember to tell Arlen that or about something, and then I remember, I can't do it in the normal way anymore. So here's hoping that you can hear what I am thinking, feeling,and wishing.
I will see you soon,
Love, Me
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
Ho Hum
So I decided that I should probably write something. Does that count?
Last Saturday, I had the sale open for about 3 hours. Managed to make about $150. Not bad considering it was wet, cold and breezy. Not to mention fishing opener. Closed up early. Couldn't take the cold and when it started to rain, had to put eveything back inside, which meant there wasn't any room for people to move around.
This week, I will have it open Thursday and Friday from 2 - 6 and Saturday morning. Have to close it down at noon as I have to get to Farmington for my daughter-in-laws graduation. She is graduating with her MBA. so smart, and yet she married into this family. Go figure. Very proud of her.
The following weekend is my granddaughter Lily's 3rd birthday. Where did those 3 years go? She is having a princess party. She got to pick the theme, the invites and everything. Should be fun.
June I have absolutely nothing going on! Winstock is the 9th and 10th, but other than that, zip. My aunt and uncle from Vesta are coming up for it and more than likely will stop by. Look forward to seeing them. I am also thinking of renting the storage unit for 1 more month, depending on what all is left. That way I could have it open during Winstock. So far just a thought.
Work is the same. We got a soft servc ice cream machine in on Friday. What a pain that will be. Same mix as DQ, so who knows, it may prove to be a good thing, or just another pain in my behind.
Next time I sit down to do this, I should have some pictures of the sale, before and after. Wish me luck with getting rid of everything.
Last Saturday, I had the sale open for about 3 hours. Managed to make about $150. Not bad considering it was wet, cold and breezy. Not to mention fishing opener. Closed up early. Couldn't take the cold and when it started to rain, had to put eveything back inside, which meant there wasn't any room for people to move around.
This week, I will have it open Thursday and Friday from 2 - 6 and Saturday morning. Have to close it down at noon as I have to get to Farmington for my daughter-in-laws graduation. She is graduating with her MBA. so smart, and yet she married into this family. Go figure. Very proud of her.
The following weekend is my granddaughter Lily's 3rd birthday. Where did those 3 years go? She is having a princess party. She got to pick the theme, the invites and everything. Should be fun.
June I have absolutely nothing going on! Winstock is the 9th and 10th, but other than that, zip. My aunt and uncle from Vesta are coming up for it and more than likely will stop by. Look forward to seeing them. I am also thinking of renting the storage unit for 1 more month, depending on what all is left. That way I could have it open during Winstock. So far just a thought.
Work is the same. We got a soft servc ice cream machine in on Friday. What a pain that will be. Same mix as DQ, so who knows, it may prove to be a good thing, or just another pain in my behind.
Next time I sit down to do this, I should have some pictures of the sale, before and after. Wish me luck with getting rid of everything.
Friday, May 13, 2011
Garage Sale
Tomorrow is the first of the days for the sale. Pretty much have everything done at this point that I can.
Still have a few things to take out there and all of the pricing left. The weather just has not been helping at all. It stays so cold and wet that it is hard to work in it.
My biggest concern is that nobocy shows up. Never gave it a thought that it was fishing opener. Good thing I planned on more than 1 weekend. Just want it over and done with. What I'm going to do with all the left over junk is beyond me. I'm hoping there isn't that much and that what is left will fit in the back of the Jeep, at least until I can figure out what to do with it.
I can't believe all the stuff that was in the house! There is enough that someone just starting out could have a pretty well stocked kitchen or small business using tools of every sort!
If I were to sell everyting for just a $1 a piece, I would probably make about $500, so am kinda looking forward to seeing what I end up with. Yes, money is always an issue.
I want to get some before pictures, just to be able to see what there was, what was sold, you know, because my memory isn't that great.
That's it, time for bed again.
Still have a few things to take out there and all of the pricing left. The weather just has not been helping at all. It stays so cold and wet that it is hard to work in it.
My biggest concern is that nobocy shows up. Never gave it a thought that it was fishing opener. Good thing I planned on more than 1 weekend. Just want it over and done with. What I'm going to do with all the left over junk is beyond me. I'm hoping there isn't that much and that what is left will fit in the back of the Jeep, at least until I can figure out what to do with it.
I can't believe all the stuff that was in the house! There is enough that someone just starting out could have a pretty well stocked kitchen or small business using tools of every sort!
If I were to sell everyting for just a $1 a piece, I would probably make about $500, so am kinda looking forward to seeing what I end up with. Yes, money is always an issue.
I want to get some before pictures, just to be able to see what there was, what was sold, you know, because my memory isn't that great.
That's it, time for bed again.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Trying hard to ignore
I am trying very hard to ignore all the negative goings on at work. It is so very easy to get sucked into someone else's comlaints when you work with them every day.
I would like to enjoy going to work again. At first I was puitting it down to all the other shifts, but somehow that doesn't feel right anymore. I have put up with a lot from my co-worker. More than I probably should have. Tomorrow I will have to listen to her gripe about the one who works in the afternoon. They are like oil and water.
No matter, I am going to try very hard to keep a positive outlook and look at thing differently. After all, if all I do is bitch about things, that doesn't make me any better than the other ones.
My note to the owners seems to have helped. I'm hoping that it keeps up. If everyone would just do their job on their shift and let the other ones worry about themselves, wouldn't it be better? Not just for us but for out customers also? So that is what I am going to do. Go to work, do my job, feel appreciated, if not from the owners at least from myself. I think I deserve it. So what if I have to pat myself on the back and say job well done, at least I will be hearing it.
So, here's to positive thinking, positive attitudes and being positive that I am doing the absolute best that I can.
I would like to enjoy going to work again. At first I was puitting it down to all the other shifts, but somehow that doesn't feel right anymore. I have put up with a lot from my co-worker. More than I probably should have. Tomorrow I will have to listen to her gripe about the one who works in the afternoon. They are like oil and water.
No matter, I am going to try very hard to keep a positive outlook and look at thing differently. After all, if all I do is bitch about things, that doesn't make me any better than the other ones.
My note to the owners seems to have helped. I'm hoping that it keeps up. If everyone would just do their job on their shift and let the other ones worry about themselves, wouldn't it be better? Not just for us but for out customers also? So that is what I am going to do. Go to work, do my job, feel appreciated, if not from the owners at least from myself. I think I deserve it. So what if I have to pat myself on the back and say job well done, at least I will be hearing it.
So, here's to positive thinking, positive attitudes and being positive that I am doing the absolute best that I can.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Frustrated beyond belief!
What iis it with some people? They show up for work late (when they show up), leave work early, and then have the balls to complain about the next shift showing up late? I don't get it.
The girl that I work with is on time if she shows up late by 10 minutes, she leaves work early so she doesn't have to see one of the afternoon people, and yet today she actually made this comment, "If you are going to leave around noon, they should have someone else coming in at that time". I get there at 4 am, which is 15 minutes before I have to be there, I don't leave if there are things to do until they are done, plus I am alone for the first 1 1/2 hours of the day. She gets rattled if there are more than 2 people waiting in line, get over it all ready.
Friday she didn't bother to show up at all, didn't bother to call in until I had called her to see if she was planning on coming to work, ended up finding someone to come in at 10 so that I could actually leave on time. This morning, it seemed that the same thing was going to happen. However, I refuse to call her anymore. I am not her boss, her mother, or her fill in. She is 33 years old with a family, how does she handle it being that inconsiderate of other people?
To top it off, we were left with no ones, quarters or tens to use in the tills. What? is this a store or what?
I was actually putting away groceries from last Tuesday this morning. Nobody else seems to think it is their job to do this. The one pop vendor plopped down the 2 liters in the back room, there is a shelf for them by the pop. So I put them where they belonged. If I hadn't done this the grocery delivery would have had no place to be un-loaded. The weekend and evening people seem to think that they don't have to break down their boxes and place them in the dumpster. They just pile them up and leave them. Tired and frustrated by the inconsideration that goes on there.
On the plus side, we were extremely busy this morning, hope that keeps up. Although I don't know how the other people will get anything done. Oh year, they don't do anything now.
I am now done ranting, feel a little bit better.
The girl that I work with is on time if she shows up late by 10 minutes, she leaves work early so she doesn't have to see one of the afternoon people, and yet today she actually made this comment, "If you are going to leave around noon, they should have someone else coming in at that time". I get there at 4 am, which is 15 minutes before I have to be there, I don't leave if there are things to do until they are done, plus I am alone for the first 1 1/2 hours of the day. She gets rattled if there are more than 2 people waiting in line, get over it all ready.
Friday she didn't bother to show up at all, didn't bother to call in until I had called her to see if she was planning on coming to work, ended up finding someone to come in at 10 so that I could actually leave on time. This morning, it seemed that the same thing was going to happen. However, I refuse to call her anymore. I am not her boss, her mother, or her fill in. She is 33 years old with a family, how does she handle it being that inconsiderate of other people?
To top it off, we were left with no ones, quarters or tens to use in the tills. What? is this a store or what?
I was actually putting away groceries from last Tuesday this morning. Nobody else seems to think it is their job to do this. The one pop vendor plopped down the 2 liters in the back room, there is a shelf for them by the pop. So I put them where they belonged. If I hadn't done this the grocery delivery would have had no place to be un-loaded. The weekend and evening people seem to think that they don't have to break down their boxes and place them in the dumpster. They just pile them up and leave them. Tired and frustrated by the inconsideration that goes on there.
On the plus side, we were extremely busy this morning, hope that keeps up. Although I don't know how the other people will get anything done. Oh year, they don't do anything now.
I am now done ranting, feel a little bit better.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Winter, who neds it?
So they have snow in the forcast again. I am really tired of wind, cold and wet, whether it is rain or snow. I am so ready for Spring to get here, and stay.
I guess I am not the only one to feel this way. Shouldn't we have a say in it? Where do we go to vote on who controls the outside thermostat?
The other day I wrote about working with idiots. Here is more proof. Yesterday, our Coke delivery guy wa telling us that the broad, who is suppose to be in charge of the pop order, called up and demanded that they send her a different rep. Silly person, Mike is as good as they get. he knows what he is doing, does it well and is easy to get along with. He must have told her no about something, and she didn't like it. Too bad. He is already going out of his way to be accomodating to her, to likewise in return. Told you, I work with some idiots.
So, Saturday in the cold and wet we (by we, I mean, Collin, Amber, Miranda and Adam) got the storage unit cleaned out, sorted and pretty much ready for the sale. Ended up filling the dumpster here, that's the way it goes. In 20+ years, I have never filled the dumpster up. Yesterday, Dave came and got the stove, an old metal box spring and some shelving, There is actually a floor out there! Forgot about that.
Next week the weather is suppose to be better (fingers crossed) so I should be able to get out and start getting it organized. It will be sad to see it all go, but it has to be done. After all, what am I going to do with a storage unit full of tools? I have the ones I want and need. I'm hoping to make a good amount of money, could sure use it. But then, who couldn't.
Well that's whats been going on here. Hope you have a good day.
I guess I am not the only one to feel this way. Shouldn't we have a say in it? Where do we go to vote on who controls the outside thermostat?
The other day I wrote about working with idiots. Here is more proof. Yesterday, our Coke delivery guy wa telling us that the broad, who is suppose to be in charge of the pop order, called up and demanded that they send her a different rep. Silly person, Mike is as good as they get. he knows what he is doing, does it well and is easy to get along with. He must have told her no about something, and she didn't like it. Too bad. He is already going out of his way to be accomodating to her, to likewise in return. Told you, I work with some idiots.
So, Saturday in the cold and wet we (by we, I mean, Collin, Amber, Miranda and Adam) got the storage unit cleaned out, sorted and pretty much ready for the sale. Ended up filling the dumpster here, that's the way it goes. In 20+ years, I have never filled the dumpster up. Yesterday, Dave came and got the stove, an old metal box spring and some shelving, There is actually a floor out there! Forgot about that.
Next week the weather is suppose to be better (fingers crossed) so I should be able to get out and start getting it organized. It will be sad to see it all go, but it has to be done. After all, what am I going to do with a storage unit full of tools? I have the ones I want and need. I'm hoping to make a good amount of money, could sure use it. But then, who couldn't.
Well that's whats been going on here. Hope you have a good day.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Idiots, every single one!
Why is it in the work place, there are more idiots than not? You know who I mean, every place has them. Too bad they don't recognize themselves. Too bad we just can't come out and tell them, your are an idiot.
We have the winner of the idot contest at work. She thinks she knows everything about everything, and yet is so clueless on how things work, she just look ridiculous.
Yesterday, 7-Up came in to stock their shelves, well instead of breaking down their boxes right away and putting them in the dumpster, they left them. Then had the gall to leave a note asking us to catch the garbage guy so we could haul out their garbage. Excuse me. We have better things to do then sit by the back door and wait for the garbage truck. Needless to say the boxes didn't get put oout. She is worried that the dumpster will be full before the next pickup, duh! Of course it's going to be full, take out your damn boxes!
She then proceeds to call me at home, did we catch the garbage man? Does it look like we did? The boxes are still there.
When I make the comment that Lyle should really have 2 dumpsters, 1 for boxes, 1 for trash, she then says it's not up to the garbage company but Lyle. What? Did I miss something here? Idiot, idioit, idiot.
Anyway, don't have to deal with her or the store for 2 days. Yeah!
Tomorrow, Collin, Amber, Miranda and Adam are all coming to help with the storage unit. Adam is bringing a trailer to haul everything back here to the dumpster. Will make things much easier and faster., When we get done with the garbage, can haul everything that is boxed up for the sale out there, and I can hopefully have a clutter free house. 28 years, never had a clutter free house. Am enjoying it now.
I made up my chicken casserole, so that is ready for the crock pot. Tasted really yummy. Took 3 chicken breasts, diced them, seasoned and browned, added to egg noodles, cream of chicken soup and corn. Even if they don't like it, I do. I now have a chocolate cake in the oven. Going to serve that up with whipped cream and raspberries in place of frosting.
Right away in the morning, I am going to make a big pot of coffee, the old fashioned way, on top of the stove to bring with out there. Also plan on making blueberry muffins for breakfast. Yummy.
I want to get before, during and after pictures of the unit. Should be interesting. Will keep you posted.
Have a great weekend, don't let the weather deter you from your plans, it will change!
We have the winner of the idot contest at work. She thinks she knows everything about everything, and yet is so clueless on how things work, she just look ridiculous.
Yesterday, 7-Up came in to stock their shelves, well instead of breaking down their boxes right away and putting them in the dumpster, they left them. Then had the gall to leave a note asking us to catch the garbage guy so we could haul out their garbage. Excuse me. We have better things to do then sit by the back door and wait for the garbage truck. Needless to say the boxes didn't get put oout. She is worried that the dumpster will be full before the next pickup, duh! Of course it's going to be full, take out your damn boxes!
She then proceeds to call me at home, did we catch the garbage man? Does it look like we did? The boxes are still there.
When I make the comment that Lyle should really have 2 dumpsters, 1 for boxes, 1 for trash, she then says it's not up to the garbage company but Lyle. What? Did I miss something here? Idiot, idioit, idiot.
Anyway, don't have to deal with her or the store for 2 days. Yeah!
Tomorrow, Collin, Amber, Miranda and Adam are all coming to help with the storage unit. Adam is bringing a trailer to haul everything back here to the dumpster. Will make things much easier and faster., When we get done with the garbage, can haul everything that is boxed up for the sale out there, and I can hopefully have a clutter free house. 28 years, never had a clutter free house. Am enjoying it now.
I made up my chicken casserole, so that is ready for the crock pot. Tasted really yummy. Took 3 chicken breasts, diced them, seasoned and browned, added to egg noodles, cream of chicken soup and corn. Even if they don't like it, I do. I now have a chocolate cake in the oven. Going to serve that up with whipped cream and raspberries in place of frosting.
Right away in the morning, I am going to make a big pot of coffee, the old fashioned way, on top of the stove to bring with out there. Also plan on making blueberry muffins for breakfast. Yummy.
I want to get before, during and after pictures of the unit. Should be interesting. Will keep you posted.
Have a great weekend, don't let the weather deter you from your plans, it will change!
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