Since I got fired from my last job (believe it or not the first time ever) I have had plenty of time to have a lot of thoughts. After all the weather and the job market are not helping the search at all.
I probably did look like I didn't enjoy going to work. I enjoyed it before things started going all kerplooy. It is very hard to enjoy it when you know that your boss doesn't think very hightly of you. When they place a greather value on other employees just for the reason that they go running to him with every little thing. I used to dread the mornings when he would be there before I got to leave. No matter what every one else said, they enjoyed it when he wasn't there also. What does that say about his leadership qualities?
I really don't care what trype of work I get, it just has to be dirt and dust free. For some reason, I have found that I enjoy being able to breathe. It would be nice to find something close by, but.....the chances of that happening are very slim.
If I had the means to open a business of my own, trust me I would have done it a long time ago! I have also discovered that I have no latent talents ( of any sort). Can't sing, can't write, can't dance, can't paint, can't focus evidentally. Since I don't really have a passion for anything it makes looking for work twice as hard.
I know, I know, excuses, excuses, excuses. The realization of your own shortcomings is never a pretty thing. But they have to be addressed. I am not good at trying to sell myself. Never have been, probably never will be. I am not going to lie to get a job, what good would that do? It all just comes back to bite you in the you kinow what.
Believe it or not, I am not feeling sorry for myself. I reserve that right for later in the night, after a day of having no where to go and no one to talk to. As I said at the beginning, these are just the thoughts that go through my head every day. Even I am getting tired of listening to them.
